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i love the people who are closest to me.
i wish we could have serious talks... i was going to say more often, but they dont ever happen as it is.
i like when people are honest with me. and tell me how they genuinely think of me.
apparently my life is a series of history repeating itself, and the common theme is that i sell myself short in order to make those around me happy, all the while i make myself less happy than i could be.
im too selfless to take the time to focus on myself, because im afraid of being selfish.
but as brandon says "its not considered being selfish if you dont do it all the time"
i guess after almost 24 years now of worrying about making other people happy i can focus a little on making me happy. and ive started to do that a little bit.
once i get a job i will mold myself.
i will be everything im meant to be.
living up to my full potential.
with a smile from ear to ear.
all the while still being the same friend i always was.
and still with the same sense of humor that youve all grown to know and love (;
i wish we could have serious talks... i was going to say more often, but they dont ever happen as it is.
i like when people are honest with me. and tell me how they genuinely think of me.
apparently my life is a series of history repeating itself, and the common theme is that i sell myself short in order to make those around me happy, all the while i make myself less happy than i could be.
im too selfless to take the time to focus on myself, because im afraid of being selfish.
but as brandon says "its not considered being selfish if you dont do it all the time"
i guess after almost 24 years now of worrying about making other people happy i can focus a little on making me happy. and ive started to do that a little bit.
once i get a job i will mold myself.
i will be everything im meant to be.
living up to my full potential.
with a smile from ear to ear.
all the while still being the same friend i always was.
and still with the same sense of humor that youve all grown to know and love (;