Josh's Birthday
yeah happy birthday josh! i hope its the best it can possibly be. well yesterday was quite a busy day and it was gay. the carwash was gay i mean duh. but me and rochelle didnt have to wash cars which was cool i guess. we were poster holders on the corner of 441 and we had like 100 cars honk at us at least. and then i had my football game. we lost and i cried. it was the last game of the season and ill miss my team soooo much and going to practice every week and having games every saturday. it was a routine ive been into for the past 2 months now. and now its gone like everything else good in my life. and then my dad drove me to jds party and i like cried the whole way there because i rushed home got dressed and like the effect of the game was still there. so at first i was kinda out of it but then i think i acted myself. not really. i was so tired and i just wanted to go to sleep. i think i almost did a couple times 2. it was nice tho. i felt really comfortable. apparently ricky was trying to "get me" and i didnt know this. and like i was on the bed and he was laying on my boobs (which really hurt) and i got up and went and layed on jd on the floor. and this made him mad. im like "dude, why?" and hes like "cause you'd cuddle with josh and not me" what an idiot. of course id rather be with josh. i mean rickys a lot cooler than he used to be and maybe i liked him for a little bit (or maybe just flirting with him cause no one else was giving me attention and he was) but yeah. he told me he liked me alot last nite and that im hott or something (yeah right he must be blind) and i fear hes gonna ask me out and i just dont wanna go out with him. nothing against him its just idk...o well who cares. it was so weird last nite i was so tired but when i came home i didnt go to sleep until 1 and i woke up at 7. and im still fucking tired but i cant sleep. ugh! im a fucking insomniac i swear. i feel like crying again too. i want this to fucking stop...whatever i dont care...rachel