If you called me yesterday and I hung up/didn't pick up, I'm sorry. If you tried to talk to me whether in RL or on MSN and ignored you, I'm also sorry. I was in no condition to talk to anybody and I still am not, and though I do appreciate your concern, I still need some time to get out of the 'just not there' phase ( Read more... )

I did not kill myself. I'm just not picking up. STOP CALLING! I think EVERYBODY who I have EVER known rang me already. I'm not getting up to answer ANOTHER phone call, ok? I DON'T want to talk about it (or talk at all), I'm NOT fine and all I need for the moment is for peolpe to leave me the hell alone ( Read more... )

Today is Father's Day ( Read more... )

So I moped a lot about today's game and the way it made things be. But now I'm starting to think what this would mean for me as an individual. Man, I am going to miss so much about something that became a routine like coming home after school. These are some things I'm really going to miss ( Read more... )

Today will be the day I will not soon forget. The semi-finals, in which we lost by 14 points. It was a hard game, but we did end up coming out short ( Read more... )

So me, Dina and Trevor watched "The Grudge" yesterday. That is a fucking scary movie, only it's stupid. It has a plot, but it's not explained at all, so it could've as well not have one at all. Why the hell was the guy acting like a cat, and where did his jaw go?! I really want to watch the original Japanese version now, because as I found out from ( Read more... )

I am depressed. So sad. Cried for two periods straight today. Obviously, didn't go to those in the first place... It's just, it's too ironic. All the people who are closest to me, whom I treasure and care about the most always turn out to be something I would've never expected. And what hurts more is that I usually have an image in my head of them ( Read more... )

I tried to get some rest tonight, but I really couldn't! Everytime I am alone in silence with myself with nothing to distract me - all the desperate grief that I am feeling right now keeps coming back. I am still disappointed in my friends shifting all the blame on me! All my friends practically saying that what I did to Trevor was wrong ( Read more... )

I acnnot believe that what's happening is really happening. I thought about everything hard and long, and I told Trevor that I need some time alone to think and that I need a break. I might have been a little harsh, but I just wanted for once look out for myself, too. Do something that would make me happy - just for myself. I mean, I always look ( Read more... )

I'm going for a walk. And no, I do not care that it is close to 2 o'clock in the morning! I'm too stressed, and if something happens to me - let it ( Read more... )