Social hurdles, self, social hurdles. Keeping in touch, self, keeping in touch.

That's what I tell myself as I mentally trudge through the awkwardness.

Seeing a movie with Ted was wonderful, but calling him on the phone and arranging to pick him up at his home DID freak me out. I feel uncomfortable with most phone conversations, because I'm like ( Read more... )

Last day of school sucked. I wandered around feeling lost, confused, and unhappy. It was gorgeous outside, and people were all together in clumps being obsessed with yearbooks, and I really don't care about the yearbook thing and it made me unhappy because it didn't feel like the right ending or particularly meaningful, being chased around by ( Read more... )

Well, well! I haven't posted her in a looong time. Well, not actually that long, but so much has happened since my last post that there might as well have well been four years since then. Shakespeare Ensemble happened, three super fun performances, three good decent kisses, one extra-insane awesome bitch-fight scene, cast party, bonding, final ( Read more... )

So much happening that I haven't talked about and won't because there's too much going on plus ahm SLEEPEH.
READY?
1) Afternoon/evening out with Tuncle and pals!
2) Emma's freakin amazing dance concert
3) Amazing pre-mother's day bonding day 
4) Bought graduation dress and one for my sister's graduation
5) Ridiculous dress tale
6) The worst House episode ( Read more... )

I just finished the first season of Slings & Arrows. I think it's the combination of womanly hormones and exhaustion, but nevertheless, it did make me cry a little. And think about everything. EVERYTHING. Hamlet. Me. People. Life. Shakespeare. Shakespeare class. Shakespeare Ensemble. Ted. School. No CSW. Endings. Ted. Hamlet. Last year. This year. ( Read more... )

 Okay, thoughts, no grammar, just spewage! GO!

1) AHHH are we going to have to kiss tomorrow am I going to be his first kiss he's a cool guy but please I don't want to I know it's just acting and I tell myself I totally don't care but I still doooo and that scene's probably tomorrow and there's probably at the least going to be awkward groping but I ( Read more... )

Morning: Grabbed a just-barely-warmed pancake on my way out of the house, wanted to get to school later though (I'm not particularly enjoying the early morning cafeteria time as much as I used to...I dunno why...it's not like I suddenly dislike it, I guess I'm just bored with it?) so I did, and was happy. Re-warmed the pancake in the school's ( Read more... )

Breakfast: Too much college talk, new-found optimism/self-confidence slightly shrunken, nice to see people, didn't get to present my pie all nice and talk to Tom so he didn't seem to appreciate it that much but I hope that is just because he was distracted because I put a lotta love into that pie

Assembly: Not very eventful, did a nice big senior ( Read more... )

MOD THREE IS OVER!! What a momentus module! So many tears, so much art, so much enriching discussion, so much reading, so much Catherine Deneuve, so many accidental sexual innuendos en francais, so much Tom and Ted, so much less sleep thank usual, so much dance, so much art toolbox!
I'm really going to miss this mod. It's felt so...huge. In one mod ( Read more... )

 I feel like I'm kind of going insane, because I keep telling myself that I'm a mess or feeling like a mess and then later wondering why on earth  thought or felt that. I can't stop questioning what kind of state I'm really in, but the fact that I keep doing that is sort of curious and distressful at the same time. I mean, yes I wish I could be ( Read more... )