drinking
So apparently my new habits have been worrying people a little so i guess i'll speak on it. Since this year has started, i know i have picked up on my drinking. I'm afraid people now see me as some drunk, which i think is not a fair description of who i am. Yes i do drink more these days, i kinda wonder why i am, i guess the only reason i can come up with is prolly not gonna make many people happy. The reason i drink as much as i do these days because i don't like what i think about at night, i don't like seeing other people with their gf's/bf's while i am alone, i don't like seeing assholes getting the girls at the end of the night, while i get shafted cus i'm "too nice." Instead what do i do, i drink with my fraternity brothers because when i am doing that, i am not thinking about those things. When i am with them, i laugh, smile, and forget about the things that make me sad. Are these good reasons to drink, prolly not but better than thinking about things that will put me in a bad mood. Are my actions putting me farther from God and make me a worse person, I don't think so. If anything, it actually shows how good of a person i really am. Yes, i am more drunk these days but have i done anything bad in any of these situations. My grades are better this year than they ever were last year. My study habits r better than theyu have been in years. Have i tried anything that goes against my morals, have i treated females with any disrespect, have i tried hooking up with girls while they were drunk or tried anything that would be percieved less than gentlemenlike? the answer is no. Not even the strongest of alcohol can change how i treat people or change my morals and values. At my worst, i am still better than many people at their best. If u have a problem with any of this, lay it on me, and fehn i know u don't agree with me on some of this stuff so bring it.