[Private] The Future.
It has been a while since I've written up a proper report on the matters at hand...
We are to be holding a guild meeting very soon, and no doubt the guild leaders and the other members will have various issues to bring to group attention. The Fon Master seems to be doing well. Arietta has also appeared in Atlas, so I have willingly left the Fon Master in her care. Her feelings for Ion (the original Ion, at the least) are strong, and I didn't wish to cause any problems by remaining too close to the Fon Master. Additionally, we've managed to retrieve Asch, but the Negativity itself still concerns me. That something can tap into a person's most secret worries and fears, even when that person has been trying to overcome them... It's frightening. Just thinking about it, I've realized how vulnerable I might be against something of that nature. I have been trying desperately to remain professional, to look forward, to shake off any nervousness, and yet I'm still aware of how easily I might find myself overcome by hopelessness.
Certainly I will not give up. So much has happened, and yet I'm not quite sure what path I wish to take. Before we fought Van, we all said we would work to create our own future, but what is that future?
I've considered this, too. For the longest time I looked up to Major Legretta as a role model. I wanted to become the perfect soldier, and yet, that is no longer what I want. When I found the Major's letter, I realized that she didn't wish for me to become like herself. Major once said that I was honest and straightforward, that those were virtues she had already lost. While certain emotions only get in the way on the battlefield, if these feelings are indeed virtues, then I do not wish to lose them completely. Rather than becoming the perfect soldier, I would like to strive instead towards finding a path that I can take pride in. It will take some time, but it can be done.
One step at a time, though. I agreed to accompany Instructor Cantabile. Apparently there are rumors spreading that ghosts have been sighted outside the town. I'm not particularly fond of the idea, but I can't just go on being afraid of them forever. Besides, if she's willing, I believe that the Instructor would be a welcome addition to the guild. Not only is she skilled in combat, but she's an able teacher as long as you don't get on her bad side. I made that mistake once, and I don't wish to repeat it.
We are to be holding a guild meeting very soon, and no doubt the guild leaders and the other members will have various issues to bring to group attention. The Fon Master seems to be doing well. Arietta has also appeared in Atlas, so I have willingly left the Fon Master in her care. Her feelings for Ion (the original Ion, at the least) are strong, and I didn't wish to cause any problems by remaining too close to the Fon Master. Additionally, we've managed to retrieve Asch, but the Negativity itself still concerns me. That something can tap into a person's most secret worries and fears, even when that person has been trying to overcome them... It's frightening. Just thinking about it, I've realized how vulnerable I might be against something of that nature. I have been trying desperately to remain professional, to look forward, to shake off any nervousness, and yet I'm still aware of how easily I might find myself overcome by hopelessness.
Certainly I will not give up. So much has happened, and yet I'm not quite sure what path I wish to take. Before we fought Van, we all said we would work to create our own future, but what is that future?
I've considered this, too. For the longest time I looked up to Major Legretta as a role model. I wanted to become the perfect soldier, and yet, that is no longer what I want. When I found the Major's letter, I realized that she didn't wish for me to become like herself. Major once said that I was honest and straightforward, that those were virtues she had already lost. While certain emotions only get in the way on the battlefield, if these feelings are indeed virtues, then I do not wish to lose them completely. Rather than becoming the perfect soldier, I would like to strive instead towards finding a path that I can take pride in. It will take some time, but it can be done.
One step at a time, though. I agreed to accompany Instructor Cantabile. Apparently there are rumors spreading that ghosts have been sighted outside the town. I'm not particularly fond of the idea, but I can't just go on being afraid of them forever. Besides, if she's willing, I believe that the Instructor would be a welcome addition to the guild. Not only is she skilled in combat, but she's an able teacher as long as you don't get on her bad side. I made that mistake once, and I don't wish to repeat it.