..........Day one.
Today is alright.
I woke up real late, took a shower and then put tons of blankets down on the lawn and lay out there for an hour trying to make pictures out the clouds. It was real nice. It was fun to just lay and think. Tons of shit is on my mind today which i wish wasnt. Ive decided that i really cant trust anyone anymore. atall... I think drugs are really stupid, and that i need to stop lookin to people for help and just deal and figure out my shit alone. Pouting doesnt help and neither does sleeping or getting drunk. I really think england will be good for me, im so excited to leave! For now i just need to take it day by day until i get there, just fuck everyone and make myself happy before i try to make others. On a better note... my new room is all set up now finally! Sure, its easter egg yellow painted but atleast i got my own bed and room to sleep in now.. oh and my little sisters are coming for a sleepover this friday which will be amazing im sure! Im super happy that burn will be home tonight, I have missed that guy sooo much this past month and im reeaallll happy that me and kevin are talking again, its been the longest 3-4 months ever... yay for good good people:)
I woke up real late, took a shower and then put tons of blankets down on the lawn and lay out there for an hour trying to make pictures out the clouds. It was real nice. It was fun to just lay and think. Tons of shit is on my mind today which i wish wasnt. Ive decided that i really cant trust anyone anymore. atall... I think drugs are really stupid, and that i need to stop lookin to people for help and just deal and figure out my shit alone. Pouting doesnt help and neither does sleeping or getting drunk. I really think england will be good for me, im so excited to leave! For now i just need to take it day by day until i get there, just fuck everyone and make myself happy before i try to make others. On a better note... my new room is all set up now finally! Sure, its easter egg yellow painted but atleast i got my own bed and room to sleep in now.. oh and my little sisters are coming for a sleepover this friday which will be amazing im sure! Im super happy that burn will be home tonight, I have missed that guy sooo much this past month and im reeaallll happy that me and kevin are talking again, its been the longest 3-4 months ever... yay for good good people:)