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So Ive come to the conclusion that everyones fucked up and drugs are definitely bad...
As hard as i try to show that i care and help people i just cant get through to anyone.. it really hurts. I wonder if my words mean anything cuz it aint easy to talk. As much as people mess up though, I wont give up on those that i care about...and they knows who they are...
.. theres other types of people out there that come to me for sympathy, or cuz no one else will listen, or cuz they got no friends so they have to crawl back to me. I dont feel sorry for those people.
They deserve what they get for pushing me away in the first place... waste of my time I tell ya.. and heart ache.
Talk your shit and peirce your tongue ya know. I am numb now.
However on a good note... Kaitlin! ohhh maaaannnnnnn. That girl rocked my world this weekend... or should i say, i rocked hers?! :)
We had an excellent time together and Im going to spokane this weekend to visit her.
We talked alll mother fucking weekend, no silence or awkwardness... theres alot to her that id never seen before. She is an amazing artist. Her voice and music is phenomenal and it was excellent jamming with her and jessie. jessie rules... im glad we got over the past and can be friends again. So although me and kait are a good 400 miles apart we are gunna try to make the most out everything we can.. I really enjoy her company... its nice to have someone care.
Im smiling for a couple reasons tonight... it was nice to talk to kevin finally last night... I dont feel so empty now although the conversation was rather weak because he was occupied with other things? oh and cuz des was prolly siting there the whole time. But still, it definitely took a load off.
Im also happy because i saw my mom today and she bought me a plane ticket to get the FUCK out this country.... my passport will be here in four weeks and I leave May 24th so peace out finally to all you fucks that thought id never do it.
Ummm and what else can i blabber about??? I dunno, i made a new friend Dan, unfortunately he lives in redmond and doesnt drive... sounds familiar... I really enjoy my talks with Maria... I feel like shes one of the only people that i can relate too. The girl reads me like a book its ridiculous.. I just wish shed turn her life around and smile again. hopefully we can hang out soon???
And yeah... dawn of the dead was a horrible movie, dont see it and I recommend eating french beard, microwaved, with ranch dressing on top... its fantastic. Oh and im going on 18 days now.. no drinkin, smoking, or somkin... woop woop!
As hard as i try to show that i care and help people i just cant get through to anyone.. it really hurts. I wonder if my words mean anything cuz it aint easy to talk. As much as people mess up though, I wont give up on those that i care about...and they knows who they are...
.. theres other types of people out there that come to me for sympathy, or cuz no one else will listen, or cuz they got no friends so they have to crawl back to me. I dont feel sorry for those people.
They deserve what they get for pushing me away in the first place... waste of my time I tell ya.. and heart ache.
Talk your shit and peirce your tongue ya know. I am numb now.
However on a good note... Kaitlin! ohhh maaaannnnnnn. That girl rocked my world this weekend... or should i say, i rocked hers?! :)
We had an excellent time together and Im going to spokane this weekend to visit her.
We talked alll mother fucking weekend, no silence or awkwardness... theres alot to her that id never seen before. She is an amazing artist. Her voice and music is phenomenal and it was excellent jamming with her and jessie. jessie rules... im glad we got over the past and can be friends again. So although me and kait are a good 400 miles apart we are gunna try to make the most out everything we can.. I really enjoy her company... its nice to have someone care.
Im smiling for a couple reasons tonight... it was nice to talk to kevin finally last night... I dont feel so empty now although the conversation was rather weak because he was occupied with other things? oh and cuz des was prolly siting there the whole time. But still, it definitely took a load off.
Im also happy because i saw my mom today and she bought me a plane ticket to get the FUCK out this country.... my passport will be here in four weeks and I leave May 24th so peace out finally to all you fucks that thought id never do it.
Ummm and what else can i blabber about??? I dunno, i made a new friend Dan, unfortunately he lives in redmond and doesnt drive... sounds familiar... I really enjoy my talks with Maria... I feel like shes one of the only people that i can relate too. The girl reads me like a book its ridiculous.. I just wish shed turn her life around and smile again. hopefully we can hang out soon???
And yeah... dawn of the dead was a horrible movie, dont see it and I recommend eating french beard, microwaved, with ranch dressing on top... its fantastic. Oh and im going on 18 days now.. no drinkin, smoking, or somkin... woop woop!