201: mad_muses August
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
I really should thank Scott Keller.
It's true that when we were partners, we didn't get along. We did have quite the shouting match one day. He's the Bureau's favorite son, and I'm basically wallpaper. In some senses we were bound to disagree. And this is excepting the fact that he got me my old job back, when he had no real reason to. Scott saw something in me, and he pushed. Now I understand what he was looking at, several years later.
Scott was one of the rare people to see me as more than just John's partner, and beyond that, he knew I didn't see myself as more than John's partner. This rapidly began to annoy the hell out of him, as quite a few of our arguments centered around the idea that no matter what he did, he'd never measure up. (He was right, but it wasn't personal.) He wanted me to see that I was my own person and that I could - I had to - stand on my own. A lesson you'd think I'd have learned by then, but I suppose not.
Now I see what Scott saw in me. He saw someone that could be a leader and a fighter. I found those things in myself over the course of what happened next. I saw it in that bus in Mexico. In the way I was willing to lay down my badge for my partner, and later, for my marriage. I've seen now that I've become so much more. And that started with Scott pushing, and me pushing back.
Thanks, Scott. I owe you one.
Muse: Stark Patrick
Fandom: The X-Files (OC)
Words: 272
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
I really should thank Scott Keller.
It's true that when we were partners, we didn't get along. We did have quite the shouting match one day. He's the Bureau's favorite son, and I'm basically wallpaper. In some senses we were bound to disagree. And this is excepting the fact that he got me my old job back, when he had no real reason to. Scott saw something in me, and he pushed. Now I understand what he was looking at, several years later.
Scott was one of the rare people to see me as more than just John's partner, and beyond that, he knew I didn't see myself as more than John's partner. This rapidly began to annoy the hell out of him, as quite a few of our arguments centered around the idea that no matter what he did, he'd never measure up. (He was right, but it wasn't personal.) He wanted me to see that I was my own person and that I could - I had to - stand on my own. A lesson you'd think I'd have learned by then, but I suppose not.
Now I see what Scott saw in me. He saw someone that could be a leader and a fighter. I found those things in myself over the course of what happened next. I saw it in that bus in Mexico. In the way I was willing to lay down my badge for my partner, and later, for my marriage. I've seen now that I've become so much more. And that started with Scott pushing, and me pushing back.
Thanks, Scott. I owe you one.
Muse: Stark Patrick
Fandom: The X-Files (OC)
Words: 272