tonight i'm wearing my best smile, in hope to make me worth your while.
so yes, it's been a few days right..
bristol nights have been pretty off the hook. Saturday was good, i got to see everyone, the first night, pretty rad, and grrreat skiing. Rocket was the sex, i even argued mike that sex could not possibly be better, he disagreeed. Monday is our badass night, it's designated now. We rode switch down eclipse, for shits and giggles, and to get better. We cut galaxy twice, almsot got caught once, but it was so encredible. We stole lunch trays and went sledding down meteor, ashley dylan, kasey and me. We basically stear clear of the park junkies. This year is all about riding, all about speed. Tuesday was, oh yes, i got my hair done, more vibrant of a red you know, and bangs. Wedneday, yesterday, was my first day of practice this week, not bad, i felt good. Then the family and i headed to rocha-cha, for tapas--the bet underground restaurant around, or just the best period. Then we went to James taylor, we had relly great seats, and this is the second time i've seen him. He's so great live. Today was a fairly good day, i wore my Jt shirt and jeans and negetive on the make-up, i was feeling very exhausted. It was down to about 50 degrees in school today, so most of us wore our coats. Today was a great practice, we did a ton of conditioning, but it was fun, and i practiced hurdles like a zillion times. I didn't go to indoor tonight because afterschool events were cancelled due to the extreme ice storm outside which is just BOUND to lead to a snowday tomorrow. Afterschool, i realized i hate that me and ben--yes i've decided that i can handle using his name on occasion--have the same friends, and it does suck, because they're always with him, so i just hang out with sam, nobody really understands. It's like, i almost wish i was the kind of person, like marissa, that just lets things go, yeah whatever, you're the biggest asshole ever but i'll just let it go. You treatest me like nothing for over a year but let's pretend it didn't happen. I honestly respect those people, it's a gift really. But to me, he doesn't deserve my friendship in the slightest. If he wants it bad enough, which he doesn't, he can come up to me, which he's incapable of doing really. I don't think he would have kissed me if i hadn't had kissed him, and i don't think he would talk to me if i didn't talk to him. To me, that's a sign that he's obviously just not worth the time of day. To you, it seems childish for me to ignore your existance, for me, it's not hard really, it feels right, i don't miss you in my life, because you made it worse, you made me feel like i didn't belong. Plus, you're in no place to call me childish. Plus I'm happy now, with who i'm 'with' if you can call it that yet. I like being happy and not trying to constantly have your attention, because i know now, i've got it. OOh yes, and tomorrow's bristol, a 'meet the parents' if you will, only with my favorites, you know. Tray sledding with Jason as well, looking forward to that for sure. The to kaseys for the night and maybe xmas shopping saturday before my meet. Then Sunday i sing in church, yipps.
bristol nights have been pretty off the hook. Saturday was good, i got to see everyone, the first night, pretty rad, and grrreat skiing. Rocket was the sex, i even argued mike that sex could not possibly be better, he disagreeed. Monday is our badass night, it's designated now. We rode switch down eclipse, for shits and giggles, and to get better. We cut galaxy twice, almsot got caught once, but it was so encredible. We stole lunch trays and went sledding down meteor, ashley dylan, kasey and me. We basically stear clear of the park junkies. This year is all about riding, all about speed. Tuesday was, oh yes, i got my hair done, more vibrant of a red you know, and bangs. Wedneday, yesterday, was my first day of practice this week, not bad, i felt good. Then the family and i headed to rocha-cha, for tapas--the bet underground restaurant around, or just the best period. Then we went to James taylor, we had relly great seats, and this is the second time i've seen him. He's so great live. Today was a fairly good day, i wore my Jt shirt and jeans and negetive on the make-up, i was feeling very exhausted. It was down to about 50 degrees in school today, so most of us wore our coats. Today was a great practice, we did a ton of conditioning, but it was fun, and i practiced hurdles like a zillion times. I didn't go to indoor tonight because afterschool events were cancelled due to the extreme ice storm outside which is just BOUND to lead to a snowday tomorrow. Afterschool, i realized i hate that me and ben--yes i've decided that i can handle using his name on occasion--have the same friends, and it does suck, because they're always with him, so i just hang out with sam, nobody really understands. It's like, i almost wish i was the kind of person, like marissa, that just lets things go, yeah whatever, you're the biggest asshole ever but i'll just let it go. You treatest me like nothing for over a year but let's pretend it didn't happen. I honestly respect those people, it's a gift really. But to me, he doesn't deserve my friendship in the slightest. If he wants it bad enough, which he doesn't, he can come up to me, which he's incapable of doing really. I don't think he would have kissed me if i hadn't had kissed him, and i don't think he would talk to me if i didn't talk to him. To me, that's a sign that he's obviously just not worth the time of day. To you, it seems childish for me to ignore your existance, for me, it's not hard really, it feels right, i don't miss you in my life, because you made it worse, you made me feel like i didn't belong. Plus, you're in no place to call me childish. Plus I'm happy now, with who i'm 'with' if you can call it that yet. I like being happy and not trying to constantly have your attention, because i know now, i've got it. OOh yes, and tomorrow's bristol, a 'meet the parents' if you will, only with my favorites, you know. Tray sledding with Jason as well, looking forward to that for sure. The to kaseys for the night and maybe xmas shopping saturday before my meet. Then Sunday i sing in church, yipps.