Bleedin love!
Easter weekend was so grand.
i got to spend time dying easter eggs and babysittin for my little cousins Joshie and Lo.
when i first walked in the door Lo, who is 3, goes "VALVAL!!!!" and the proceeded to do somersaults for me.
it was the best greeting i could ever ask for. i miss dem guys.
then that night i got to hang out with some fun high school friends from church and highschool which was refreshing and wonderful.
Sunday i went to my uncle's house on my dads side and John Patchett came along with our family because his family ditched him.
all the kids of my grandparents (my dad is 1 of 7) gave my grandparents this ipod nano and ihome with all their old big band songs they loved to dance to when they were younger and that they still dance too. my grandma was so touched she started crying and then her and my grandpa starting dancing together, it was so cute. It was the most tender moment i've ever experienced, everyone was like crying and watching them dance to all their old favorite big band songs. and then in this touching moment, John stepped on the cord and unplugged the ihome and the music stopped playing and everyone is looking around like "whaaaaat??" and then John goes "oops, sorry" and blushes really badly. it was so funny. everyone was like "JOOHNNN!!!" i felt bad for him but it was hilarious and no one really cared it was just so movie-like.
This week is going pretty well, i'm just startin to feel the stress of finals and whatnot because we get done so soon. I'll be moved back home April 22nd. it's crazy.
in more dramatic news:
i removed Andy from my facebook friends list for my own good so i would stop checking it every 5 seconds.
it was not out of bitter ex-girlfriend resentment or anything it was just
because thats its no good for me to check on him constantly and it just going to hinder me from moving on and being alright.
anyway so like literally 4 minutes after it happened he called and asked why i did that...
then we had a kind of long conversation, it both sad, aggravating and good i suppose.
I'm realizing all these new things about myself and what i'm looking for and now seeing certain things
in him that i could never see before. I think i'm finally starting to move forward a little bit.
i still care for him a lot, but he's no where no near ready to be in a relationship again and may be i'm not either. and in all honesty he deserves to be young, single, free and enjoy his youth.
but he can't have both worlds, were either together or not.
theres so much more to the complexity of this situation, but whatever, its time to start being okay.
boys boys boys are done in my life for a while.
leave me alone.
i got to spend time dying easter eggs and babysittin for my little cousins Joshie and Lo.
when i first walked in the door Lo, who is 3, goes "VALVAL!!!!" and the proceeded to do somersaults for me.
it was the best greeting i could ever ask for. i miss dem guys.
then that night i got to hang out with some fun high school friends from church and highschool which was refreshing and wonderful.
Sunday i went to my uncle's house on my dads side and John Patchett came along with our family because his family ditched him.
all the kids of my grandparents (my dad is 1 of 7) gave my grandparents this ipod nano and ihome with all their old big band songs they loved to dance to when they were younger and that they still dance too. my grandma was so touched she started crying and then her and my grandpa starting dancing together, it was so cute. It was the most tender moment i've ever experienced, everyone was like crying and watching them dance to all their old favorite big band songs. and then in this touching moment, John stepped on the cord and unplugged the ihome and the music stopped playing and everyone is looking around like "whaaaaat??" and then John goes "oops, sorry" and blushes really badly. it was so funny. everyone was like "JOOHNNN!!!" i felt bad for him but it was hilarious and no one really cared it was just so movie-like.
This week is going pretty well, i'm just startin to feel the stress of finals and whatnot because we get done so soon. I'll be moved back home April 22nd. it's crazy.
in more dramatic news:
i removed Andy from my facebook friends list for my own good so i would stop checking it every 5 seconds.
it was not out of bitter ex-girlfriend resentment or anything it was just
because thats its no good for me to check on him constantly and it just going to hinder me from moving on and being alright.
anyway so like literally 4 minutes after it happened he called and asked why i did that...
then we had a kind of long conversation, it both sad, aggravating and good i suppose.
I'm realizing all these new things about myself and what i'm looking for and now seeing certain things
in him that i could never see before. I think i'm finally starting to move forward a little bit.
i still care for him a lot, but he's no where no near ready to be in a relationship again and may be i'm not either. and in all honesty he deserves to be young, single, free and enjoy his youth.
but he can't have both worlds, were either together or not.
theres so much more to the complexity of this situation, but whatever, its time to start being okay.
boys boys boys are done in my life for a while.
leave me alone.