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i feel much better today as well. i just worked out for an hour and will swim for a loooooooooooooooooooong time tonight, and i am feeling groovy.
and mom made me feel a lot better. we talked about boys and stirling and she said she knew what to say now because she had messed up with buff. well, first she kind of hurt my feelings by saying something kind of jokey but not super supportive and i suddenly felt deflated and like my crush was not condoned and i told her that- she retracted her statement quickly and looked me in the eye and said- 'this is really great. i'm glad you are feeling this way'. and then we talked about how her automatic reaction is to freak out and not let us just ride the feelings- and she told me how she reacts to protect me because she sees i care about it a lot. she said she wished we could have 20 guys who we were hanging out with and just said, 'mom, i'm gonna go hang out with one of my old friends from grammar school' instead of Liking them.
i saw the logic in this and also saw how this type of approach could make me more successful in the long run.
and mom made me feel a lot better. we talked about boys and stirling and she said she knew what to say now because she had messed up with buff. well, first she kind of hurt my feelings by saying something kind of jokey but not super supportive and i suddenly felt deflated and like my crush was not condoned and i told her that- she retracted her statement quickly and looked me in the eye and said- 'this is really great. i'm glad you are feeling this way'. and then we talked about how her automatic reaction is to freak out and not let us just ride the feelings- and she told me how she reacts to protect me because she sees i care about it a lot. she said she wished we could have 20 guys who we were hanging out with and just said, 'mom, i'm gonna go hang out with one of my old friends from grammar school' instead of Liking them.
i saw the logic in this and also saw how this type of approach could make me more successful in the long run.