eh
ive gotten to the point where i hate like everything.......
well everything marine corps related......
everything about it pisses me off, i mean other than a few select ppl in it....
but i hate my job, i hate the ppl i work with, i hate the unit im with. im just very fed up with everything. all i want to do is just go on leave, and never come back....
they compare the marines to being a brotherhood.... yea a brotherhood where the oldest pick on the youngest just for shits.... i hardly see too much bonding or closeness in my unit...
this place is like a blackhole, you cant escape for shit and it just sucks it all out of you. your life, spirit, your caring about anything.....
ive gotten way past that point, i just dont give a shit anymore, its bad enough that i get treated like 3 ranks lower than what i actually am, but my unit regards my shop as the bottom of the barrel, not just because my shop has some fuckups in it, but because they dont need us. like if my section was to be disbanded, no one would notice.
so i dont take pride really in anything, then again i dont think i ever really did after my first 6 month here, after a while you realize that you are pointless and theres nothing important for you to actually do.... i just gave up trying to be proud of something that no one noticed or even cared about it. i just stopped trying to impress anyone....
i cant wait to get out, lil less than 2 years and ill be "free" unless they have a draft and they call me back.
i want to leave this place, maybe my next duty station (dunno where that is yet) will be less of a black hole and make me have a lil self worth again...
fuck my life
well everything marine corps related......
everything about it pisses me off, i mean other than a few select ppl in it....
but i hate my job, i hate the ppl i work with, i hate the unit im with. im just very fed up with everything. all i want to do is just go on leave, and never come back....
they compare the marines to being a brotherhood.... yea a brotherhood where the oldest pick on the youngest just for shits.... i hardly see too much bonding or closeness in my unit...
this place is like a blackhole, you cant escape for shit and it just sucks it all out of you. your life, spirit, your caring about anything.....
ive gotten way past that point, i just dont give a shit anymore, its bad enough that i get treated like 3 ranks lower than what i actually am, but my unit regards my shop as the bottom of the barrel, not just because my shop has some fuckups in it, but because they dont need us. like if my section was to be disbanded, no one would notice.
so i dont take pride really in anything, then again i dont think i ever really did after my first 6 month here, after a while you realize that you are pointless and theres nothing important for you to actually do.... i just gave up trying to be proud of something that no one noticed or even cared about it. i just stopped trying to impress anyone....
i cant wait to get out, lil less than 2 years and ill be "free" unless they have a draft and they call me back.
i want to leave this place, maybe my next duty station (dunno where that is yet) will be less of a black hole and make me have a lil self worth again...
fuck my life