completely lovely
Oh what would I do without her. She's wise beyond her years....not that I am that much older, but still...there's nothing like venting to her because I know she will smile and either knows or can imagine because she knows me so well, what I'm feeling. She always says the right thing to me.
I was telling her tonight that I feel like every day for the last month and even more so in the last week, that I can see things more clearly. In the past, I would dwell on things that weren't going my way or unknowns, and now, it's different. Like, I still have those unknowns but now, I don't dwell on them, instead I take action...and I don't spend hours, days, and weeks wondering what action I should take, instead it just comes to me. There are things I want to change about myself as whole. Some of them are silly minor things like for example, I want to start washing my face before bed. I've never done that in my whole life. But what better time than now? And another small one, I drink water all day but for some reason, I feel the need to drink a glass of water as soon as I wake up, and one before I go to bed. Is that silly? I don't care. It's like these small changes are encouraging me to make the big changes and it feels good.
If something is bothering me, I'm not going to dwell on it. I'm tired of continuing wanting something and not getting it and thinking about how I'm not getting it for days and months. That's dumb. Yup, I said it. I've been dumb for way too long. I'm gonna stop thinking about things out of my control. I'm going to take care of myself, change myself to be better than what I currently am, and I'm going to take joy in every minute of it. After all, why should I forsake what I have now for what may or may not happen later? I have it so good. SO GOOD. I have a beautiful apartment with a wonderful view that I get to enjoy daily. I live in a beautiful city with amazing, friendly people. I have friends who love and adore me. I have a good job and goals to get an even better job. I have a family that loves me. I have a godson that makes my world a better place. I can run. I can see and hear. I can smile all day long and laugh whenever I want. What have I to worry about?
nothing.
Decision made, and it feels good. oh-so good.
I was telling her tonight that I feel like every day for the last month and even more so in the last week, that I can see things more clearly. In the past, I would dwell on things that weren't going my way or unknowns, and now, it's different. Like, I still have those unknowns but now, I don't dwell on them, instead I take action...and I don't spend hours, days, and weeks wondering what action I should take, instead it just comes to me. There are things I want to change about myself as whole. Some of them are silly minor things like for example, I want to start washing my face before bed. I've never done that in my whole life. But what better time than now? And another small one, I drink water all day but for some reason, I feel the need to drink a glass of water as soon as I wake up, and one before I go to bed. Is that silly? I don't care. It's like these small changes are encouraging me to make the big changes and it feels good.
If something is bothering me, I'm not going to dwell on it. I'm tired of continuing wanting something and not getting it and thinking about how I'm not getting it for days and months. That's dumb. Yup, I said it. I've been dumb for way too long. I'm gonna stop thinking about things out of my control. I'm going to take care of myself, change myself to be better than what I currently am, and I'm going to take joy in every minute of it. After all, why should I forsake what I have now for what may or may not happen later? I have it so good. SO GOOD. I have a beautiful apartment with a wonderful view that I get to enjoy daily. I live in a beautiful city with amazing, friendly people. I have friends who love and adore me. I have a good job and goals to get an even better job. I have a family that loves me. I have a godson that makes my world a better place. I can run. I can see and hear. I can smile all day long and laugh whenever I want. What have I to worry about?
nothing.
Decision made, and it feels good. oh-so good.