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this is a negative entry, just to warn anyone who actually still reads LJ.
you really don't have to read this, it's for venting purposes only.
i don't know why i always do this.
i don't know why i get these crazy thoughts in my head.
i don't know how i can sometimes find something negative and dwell on it.
i am just flat out stuck.
i know what i want in my life i just can't push myself to do it.
but i'm going to. not even that. i need to. and i will.
i hate that i push people in my life away.
these people are a lot of the times the ones that mean the most.
i don't know how i end up making them feel bad about things.
i do take blame for it. i just can't own up to it.
i need to work on it.
i don't like the way i am, in more ways than one.
i need to push myself to exercise so i can feel healthy and more confident.
i need to get out of debt.
i won't do anything for a while.
unless it is absolutely necessary.
i can't spend money, and i won't.
i need to get my priorities straight.
i will too. i have to stick to it.
i'm sorry for the lame negativeness of this entry.
i blame the new medication i'm taking.
but i am going to change for the better.
i can be a better person.