Should I be upset?
Ok there are 2 parts to my anger. Imma post on both.
Indifferent:
I guess that I shouldnt be upset. She deserves to have fun and not be worrying about me. I want to have fun too I mean. I think? But i always had fun with her and everything... there isnt much here because I dont feel too much like this.
Angry:
I hear tons of stories about people who dated all through highschool then went into the same situation I am in where the other is left at home for a year or so and they stay together and get married. I stayed with merranda through my senior year, people said i was crazy for wanting to have a girlfriend and not have fun. I stayed with her when she was constantly upset. I remember countless times her calling me crying and I would stay up all night on the phone with her until she fell asleep because I was worried sick about her being ok. I also heard that my weak spot was because I cared too much. I remember her having a bad time at the one of the dances we went to, so i went over to give her a hug and see if there was anything I could do. But instead I got a push out of the way and she ran to the restroom. I must have waited 15 minutes sitting outside the restroom door wating for her to come out. This entire situation is not right. If she loved me she wouldnt be doing this. maybe she was using me for something, im not sure. I wonder if she even cares.
someone save me from this.
god will send me someone to ease this all.
why doesnt she care, all that we went thru. why doenst she care.
She said I was the love of her life. Was it a lie?
She said she wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. Was it a lie?
she said she loved me...
Indifferent:
I guess that I shouldnt be upset. She deserves to have fun and not be worrying about me. I want to have fun too I mean. I think? But i always had fun with her and everything... there isnt much here because I dont feel too much like this.
Angry:
I hear tons of stories about people who dated all through highschool then went into the same situation I am in where the other is left at home for a year or so and they stay together and get married. I stayed with merranda through my senior year, people said i was crazy for wanting to have a girlfriend and not have fun. I stayed with her when she was constantly upset. I remember countless times her calling me crying and I would stay up all night on the phone with her until she fell asleep because I was worried sick about her being ok. I also heard that my weak spot was because I cared too much. I remember her having a bad time at the one of the dances we went to, so i went over to give her a hug and see if there was anything I could do. But instead I got a push out of the way and she ran to the restroom. I must have waited 15 minutes sitting outside the restroom door wating for her to come out. This entire situation is not right. If she loved me she wouldnt be doing this. maybe she was using me for something, im not sure. I wonder if she even cares.
someone save me from this.
god will send me someone to ease this all.
why doesnt she care, all that we went thru. why doenst she care.
She said I was the love of her life. Was it a lie?
She said she wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. Was it a lie?
she said she loved me...