oh the injustice...
Ok, someone up there really hates me, seriously I feel like Job...like God is having a great time torturing me just cause he can. Its like I'm not allowed to be happy...like I'm damned to eternal punishment and I haven't even died and went to hell yet. I know I complain a lot and feel sorry for myself but so much shit has happened to me...it never ends...I've had one medical problem after another practically since I was born and its gotten 10 times worse since coming to college. I've got another problem now that I need to see a doctor about as soon as i have time cause i've been really busy at school. But even with that on my mind and everything else that has happened lately, I was in a good mood today. Last night Marc came over and gave me flowers for no apparent reason and no one has ever done that before and it was so sweet of him. Things have been good with most all my friends lately and I had a good time going out the last few days and I was finally starting to be optimistic and not dwell on the things that suck in my life but to just concentrate on the good stuff. So today I was in a good mood...went to my 8am class without complaining...then to my 9:30 and then back to my dorm to do a bunch of cleaning and laundry. Normally that would piss me off cause I hate laundry and i just did some yesterday and today I had to wash my comforter cause Marc made it smell like smoke and I'm really obessive compulsive over things being clean and i loathe the smell of smoke. But i was still all happy happy anyways and then I sit down at my computer to play a few games before getting back to work and I notice my battery charger just randomly stopped working, and I just replaced the damn thing a few months ago. Now I know a broken battery charger really isn't a big deal in the grand scheme of things ya know, but dammit why does this have to happen to me now? I don't even know anyone who's had this happen to them and it happens to me twice in one year even though i take a lot better care of my stuff than most people. I've had to spend a lot of money lately and I don't want to spend $50 on a new battery charger...plus my battery itself has needed to be replaced for months now and thats another $140 i don't have. I am just so sick of this shit. I really don't think it's too much to ask for me to just be able to go a few days without anything bad happening. I'm really not asking for much, all I want is to be healthy and none of my stuff to break, and not to be manipulated or treated like shit by people. But instead everytime things start to get just a little better I get kicked down in the dirt again. I really really have been trying to be happy and optimistic and everything lately but there's always that nagging thought in the back of my head about whats gonna go wrong next. The battery thing isn't a big deal in & of itself, its more like its a sign of my doom and its just so depressing. Anyways thats enough of my bitching for now...time to get some food and try and get rid of this headache.