so what do you do when somebody you're so devoted to suddenly just stops loving you
i can't really say that he stopped loving me. I know that he still does, but i don't know. it just hurts. i hurt. my heart hurts so bad. but i don't understand why. this is what i want. i'm really satisfied with what we are... or aren't. i mean if i had the chance to be with him again, i would. but i don't. and i won't go looking for that to happen any more.
you get what you put in, and people get what they deserve
I put in my whole world, and i'm empty handed, and do i really deserve to feel this way? he's my best friend, i love him,and i need him. the other day he goes you really don't like me living in omaha do you? and i was like DUH! i hate it! I mean shit, i feel like i have visitation rights wtih my bestfriend, except sometimes it's not even every other weekend. and when he is here i don't get to see him very much. but when he was here last weekend, i felt like he really appreciated me, and at least semi wanted me around. from the very beginning he was nice to me. i'm not for shur why there was a change in him, but thats ok. maybe it just took me acting like i didn't need him as much as he thought. maybe it took me not giving in so easily. i'm not really for shur. i think i'm done with our long good byes though. they seem to make it too hard on me. i thought i was going to die monday night. my mom was bitching at me again, and i just don't know i felt like shit. it was horrible. and all i wanted in the whole world, the only thing i asked for was him. i don't know why but when shit goes really wrong, he's the one person i want to be with. i get this extreme comfort from his arms thati can't find any where else. i don't want to be with other guys, because they just simply don't measure up to him. i mean i begin to like a guy, and then we get together and i'm liek this could be something good, but then when he tries to cuddle, or hold me close, i just don't feel right. i can't seem to ge that feeling from any one else but ty. i'm not looking for a relationship with him any more, but if it's put infront of me, i won't blink twice.
you get what you put in, and people get what they deserve
I put in my whole world, and i'm empty handed, and do i really deserve to feel this way? he's my best friend, i love him,and i need him. the other day he goes you really don't like me living in omaha do you? and i was like DUH! i hate it! I mean shit, i feel like i have visitation rights wtih my bestfriend, except sometimes it's not even every other weekend. and when he is here i don't get to see him very much. but when he was here last weekend, i felt like he really appreciated me, and at least semi wanted me around. from the very beginning he was nice to me. i'm not for shur why there was a change in him, but thats ok. maybe it just took me acting like i didn't need him as much as he thought. maybe it took me not giving in so easily. i'm not really for shur. i think i'm done with our long good byes though. they seem to make it too hard on me. i thought i was going to die monday night. my mom was bitching at me again, and i just don't know i felt like shit. it was horrible. and all i wanted in the whole world, the only thing i asked for was him. i don't know why but when shit goes really wrong, he's the one person i want to be with. i get this extreme comfort from his arms thati can't find any where else. i don't want to be with other guys, because they just simply don't measure up to him. i mean i begin to like a guy, and then we get together and i'm liek this could be something good, but then when he tries to cuddle, or hold me close, i just don't feel right. i can't seem to ge that feeling from any one else but ty. i'm not looking for a relationship with him any more, but if it's put infront of me, i won't blink twice.