Mar 11, 2008 17:29
It makes my stomach sink into a knot, just thinking about it. You've lead me on AGAIN giving me just that little bit of hope and I can't have it anymore because I can't take it. I've had to get over you once and now I have to do it again. I just don't understand, you love hanging out with me, you've told me and you continue to want to be around me. I don't get how you operate, one night yr all over me and the next yr not. You don't even know how much you've hurt me, I've never cried like this over a guy and last night I couldn't stop, but it could have been the bottle of wine...
Being confused and hurt at the same time is the worst, you've said it's all yr fault and damn right it is, but you've made yr choice and it's not me. Surprise Surprise. I wish you knew how I felt before that weekend and maybe things would be different, its hard for me to talk about said feelings and now I guess Ive realized you have to, you just assumed I would.