[lets find ourselves together]
so, its spring break, so i have time for this. how enlightening.
Five Things I Miss:
-time to do things like write poems. basically, time.
-the rose wallpaper that my mom and i put up in my bedroom. (even though i'm on spring break and i'm looking at it right now. i miss it when i'm at school)
-my record player (again, its over there in the corner.)
-the way my dad's cologne smells in the morning
-spring.
Five Things I Regret:
-the back of andy maraffa's truck.
-a lot of things sexual.
-ever cutting my hair.
-all the hating that i ever did.
-losing touch with all the people i ever loved, and that they might not know how much and how deeply i still love them.
Five People I Love:
-my sister.
-jessica ballinger.
-antonio.
-meghan plichta....
-sydney.
Five People I Can't Stand:
-______ ____
-____ ____
-a few of the weird annoying guys at work.
-my love and lit teacher.
-there arent really that many people i cant stand that i can think of right now.
Five People I Miss:
-ben boquist.
-nate walker.
-meghan plichta.
-sara wenger.
-anthony lamarca.
(and also)
-jessica ricci.
-mike larson.
-breanna jay.
-joe carbon.
-ben joneswhite.
-andrew carlson.
-megan sears.
Five Places I'd Like to Visit:
-san fransisco.
-new york city.
-all of italy.
-all of the west. a big camping trip, with all the stuff in the back of the van and driving around to see the grand canyon.
-israel/palestine/all of the "holy lands."
Five Foods I Adore:
-taco salad.
-tuna salad.
-chocolate peanut butter ice cream from handel's.
-pot roast, haha.
-soup. (but who doesnt like soup?) grilled cheese and tomato soup. damn i just made myself hungry, and we just ate like a huge meal.
Five Things I'm Looking Forward To:
-spring. just thinking about spring makes me want to cry, i ache so bad for it.
-drinking in cancun with my little sister. and going to cancun with my family, the water, and riding the bus.
-seeing tony in 7 days.
-coffee with my parents in the morning.
-seeing sydney and going to pittsburgh sometime this week.
Five Songs I Can't Get Out of My Head:
i really dont get songs stuck in my head.
Five Goals for the Next Five Years:
-graduate. (undergrad and grad school)
-travel.
-buy a car.
-be able to play some songs on guitar kind of decently.
-be more goal oriented long term, instead of making it day to day.
Five Places I'd Like to Work:
-as a teacher in appalachia.
-as a teacher in the city.
-in my house. not working. being a mom. we're talkin six kids. that's fucking work, who are we kidding?
-as a bartender.
-in a sex shop.
Five Places I'll Never Work At:
-retail. i have done it before and i would rather work food service anyday.
-as a teacher in the motherfucking suburbs.
-as a cab driver. i am a bad driver.
-a gas station. it would depress me too much, to watch everyone spend all their money on lottery tickets.
-in the army.
Five Songs I'm Trying to Learn On Guitar:
-i'm just trying to learn how to play some of the more obvious chords.
Five Boys I'd Like to Kiss Right Now:
-antonio dalto.
-matt chase.
-any member of rhcp.
-any member of death cab.
-karen o, but that's a girl. but whatev.
Five TV Shows I Watch:
-grey's. (yeah i am in a sorority.)
-gilmore girls.
-the news.
-the view, when ksole has it on.
-i love new york. sometimes. god thats embarassing.
Five Things I Need To Give Up:
-cigarettes. it will be a while before i give those up.
-caring so much about what other people think.
-depending so hard on my boyfriend.
-spending all my money. on things i dont need.
-downloading music.
Five Things I Need To Do More:
-read books.
-listen to different music, instead of listen to the same things.
-take pictures.
-get paperwork in on time.
-communicate with my sorority sisters and my parents about what i need.
Five Things I'm Pissed About:
-sorority.
-that coming home is still kind of depressing, even after all this time.
-that i dont have a phone anymore.
-how fast the time goes.
-the victorian midnight cafe.
FIve Things I'm Happy About:
-sorority.
-the north commons.
-the buckeyes.
-the rain on the roof and the windows and the porch and the music that we both love and that we can hold each other for so long and neither of us get bored.
-that abi is my sister.
Five Things I Enjoy:
-sex.
-smoking.
-dancing.
-ani difranco.
-the north campus movie rentals.
Five Things I Avoid:
-making the north campus movie rental guy mad.
-eye contact from authority figures.
-confrontations.
-cramps.
-patrick drunk.
Five Things I Can't Do:
-hide my emotions.
-play the guitar.
-be completely independent.
-drink liquor.
-fall asleep right away. unless i am in his bed. only then.
Five Worst Memories:
-the back of andy maraffa's truck. or the cab.
-the waiting room, and the look on my sister's face.
-leaving my journal on the table.
-when they told me their secrets, and i felt the too.
-the first time i realized how fragile my mom was.
Five Best Memories:
-holding my sister when she was a baby and she was like, half my size, and fat, and warm, and smelled so sweet.
-dance parties at anthony's and laughing so much.
-making my dad laugh until he cried. anytime. christmas, this year, at church.
-this is weird, but a few years ago when my whole family had to basically spend an entire week together, because my great grandmother had died, so we all spent a long time together. when i die i want it to be like that. a celebration of life, together, honoring an amazing woman, laughing and eating and joking and sharing stories.
-there are a lot of them, and they make me want to cry.
Five Places I'd Like to Live:
-bellaire.
-columbus.
-appalachia anywhere, really.
-out west.
-virginia. which is also appalachia. so i dont know.
Five People I Trust:
-abi.
-my mom.
-my dad.
-meghan plichta.
-ksole.
Five People Who Damage My Faith In Humanity:
-dr. james dobson.
-anyone associated with him.
-the invisible poeple who control the media.
but really... he who is without fault can throw the first stone, or whatever.
Five Things I Want:
-coach.
-platform shoes.
-to buy things for tony.
-a car.
-to not have to go to grad school.
Five Things I Need:
-shampoo.
-conditioner.
-personal space.
-to dance more often.
-a printer.
Five Ways I Would Want to Die:
i dont like this question.
Five Ways I Wouldn't Want to Die:
or this.
Five Things I Think ICould Do:
-have 6 kids.
-cook.
-teach.
-get married.
-travel.
Five Things I Actually Plan to Do:
-have two kids.
-cook.
-teach.
-get married.
-buy a camper.
Five Things I Am:
-searching.
-highstrung.
-a hopeless romantic.
-naive.
-really a redhead.
Five Things I Am Not:
-giving in.
-wise.
-good driver.
-lazy.
-a morning person.
Five Things I Am Learning to Be:
-driven.
-content.
-harderworking.
-independent.
-fearless.
Five People I Hope Do This:
-gina.
-jessica ricci.
-tom.
-jessica ballinger.
-breanna.
-my sister.
Five Things I Miss:
-time to do things like write poems. basically, time.
-the rose wallpaper that my mom and i put up in my bedroom. (even though i'm on spring break and i'm looking at it right now. i miss it when i'm at school)
-my record player (again, its over there in the corner.)
-the way my dad's cologne smells in the morning
-spring.
Five Things I Regret:
-the back of andy maraffa's truck.
-a lot of things sexual.
-ever cutting my hair.
-all the hating that i ever did.
-losing touch with all the people i ever loved, and that they might not know how much and how deeply i still love them.
Five People I Love:
-my sister.
-jessica ballinger.
-antonio.
-meghan plichta....
-sydney.
Five People I Can't Stand:
-______ ____
-____ ____
-a few of the weird annoying guys at work.
-my love and lit teacher.
-there arent really that many people i cant stand that i can think of right now.
Five People I Miss:
-ben boquist.
-nate walker.
-meghan plichta.
-sara wenger.
-anthony lamarca.
(and also)
-jessica ricci.
-mike larson.
-breanna jay.
-joe carbon.
-ben joneswhite.
-andrew carlson.
-megan sears.
Five Places I'd Like to Visit:
-san fransisco.
-new york city.
-all of italy.
-all of the west. a big camping trip, with all the stuff in the back of the van and driving around to see the grand canyon.
-israel/palestine/all of the "holy lands."
Five Foods I Adore:
-taco salad.
-tuna salad.
-chocolate peanut butter ice cream from handel's.
-pot roast, haha.
-soup. (but who doesnt like soup?) grilled cheese and tomato soup. damn i just made myself hungry, and we just ate like a huge meal.
Five Things I'm Looking Forward To:
-spring. just thinking about spring makes me want to cry, i ache so bad for it.
-drinking in cancun with my little sister. and going to cancun with my family, the water, and riding the bus.
-seeing tony in 7 days.
-coffee with my parents in the morning.
-seeing sydney and going to pittsburgh sometime this week.
Five Songs I Can't Get Out of My Head:
i really dont get songs stuck in my head.
Five Goals for the Next Five Years:
-graduate. (undergrad and grad school)
-travel.
-buy a car.
-be able to play some songs on guitar kind of decently.
-be more goal oriented long term, instead of making it day to day.
Five Places I'd Like to Work:
-as a teacher in appalachia.
-as a teacher in the city.
-in my house. not working. being a mom. we're talkin six kids. that's fucking work, who are we kidding?
-as a bartender.
-in a sex shop.
Five Places I'll Never Work At:
-retail. i have done it before and i would rather work food service anyday.
-as a teacher in the motherfucking suburbs.
-as a cab driver. i am a bad driver.
-a gas station. it would depress me too much, to watch everyone spend all their money on lottery tickets.
-in the army.
Five Songs I'm Trying to Learn On Guitar:
-i'm just trying to learn how to play some of the more obvious chords.
Five Boys I'd Like to Kiss Right Now:
-antonio dalto.
-matt chase.
-any member of rhcp.
-any member of death cab.
-karen o, but that's a girl. but whatev.
Five TV Shows I Watch:
-grey's. (yeah i am in a sorority.)
-gilmore girls.
-the news.
-the view, when ksole has it on.
-i love new york. sometimes. god thats embarassing.
Five Things I Need To Give Up:
-cigarettes. it will be a while before i give those up.
-caring so much about what other people think.
-depending so hard on my boyfriend.
-spending all my money. on things i dont need.
-downloading music.
Five Things I Need To Do More:
-read books.
-listen to different music, instead of listen to the same things.
-take pictures.
-get paperwork in on time.
-communicate with my sorority sisters and my parents about what i need.
Five Things I'm Pissed About:
-sorority.
-that coming home is still kind of depressing, even after all this time.
-that i dont have a phone anymore.
-how fast the time goes.
-the victorian midnight cafe.
FIve Things I'm Happy About:
-sorority.
-the north commons.
-the buckeyes.
-the rain on the roof and the windows and the porch and the music that we both love and that we can hold each other for so long and neither of us get bored.
-that abi is my sister.
Five Things I Enjoy:
-sex.
-smoking.
-dancing.
-ani difranco.
-the north campus movie rentals.
Five Things I Avoid:
-making the north campus movie rental guy mad.
-eye contact from authority figures.
-confrontations.
-cramps.
-patrick drunk.
Five Things I Can't Do:
-hide my emotions.
-play the guitar.
-be completely independent.
-drink liquor.
-fall asleep right away. unless i am in his bed. only then.
Five Worst Memories:
-the back of andy maraffa's truck. or the cab.
-the waiting room, and the look on my sister's face.
-leaving my journal on the table.
-when they told me their secrets, and i felt the too.
-the first time i realized how fragile my mom was.
Five Best Memories:
-holding my sister when she was a baby and she was like, half my size, and fat, and warm, and smelled so sweet.
-dance parties at anthony's and laughing so much.
-making my dad laugh until he cried. anytime. christmas, this year, at church.
-this is weird, but a few years ago when my whole family had to basically spend an entire week together, because my great grandmother had died, so we all spent a long time together. when i die i want it to be like that. a celebration of life, together, honoring an amazing woman, laughing and eating and joking and sharing stories.
-there are a lot of them, and they make me want to cry.
Five Places I'd Like to Live:
-bellaire.
-columbus.
-appalachia anywhere, really.
-out west.
-virginia. which is also appalachia. so i dont know.
Five People I Trust:
-abi.
-my mom.
-my dad.
-meghan plichta.
-ksole.
Five People Who Damage My Faith In Humanity:
-dr. james dobson.
-anyone associated with him.
-the invisible poeple who control the media.
but really... he who is without fault can throw the first stone, or whatever.
Five Things I Want:
-coach.
-platform shoes.
-to buy things for tony.
-a car.
-to not have to go to grad school.
Five Things I Need:
-shampoo.
-conditioner.
-personal space.
-to dance more often.
-a printer.
Five Ways I Would Want to Die:
i dont like this question.
Five Ways I Wouldn't Want to Die:
or this.
Five Things I Think ICould Do:
-have 6 kids.
-cook.
-teach.
-get married.
-travel.
Five Things I Actually Plan to Do:
-have two kids.
-cook.
-teach.
-get married.
-buy a camper.
Five Things I Am:
-searching.
-highstrung.
-a hopeless romantic.
-naive.
-really a redhead.
Five Things I Am Not:
-giving in.
-wise.
-good driver.
-lazy.
-a morning person.
Five Things I Am Learning to Be:
-driven.
-content.
-harderworking.
-independent.
-fearless.
Five People I Hope Do This:
-gina.
-jessica ricci.
-tom.
-jessica ballinger.
-breanna.
-my sister.