Crushes and all sorts
So feeling marginally better. Back in Auckland (I cant say "back home" because it doesnt feel right at all). Was nice to have a few days with Dad in Foxton. Psychologically more than anything I think. It was nice to have his companionship and to feel "at home" somewhere. I miss having my Dad close by. Hes actually the greatest Dad ever.
So no more spewing since I went back into hospital last sunday. Headache comes and goes but not so bad. So overall doing much better. Viral meningitis = sucks arse!!
It couldve been intercranial hypertension - and the doctor has told me to lose weight to reduce the chances of that. Being sick has made me lose about 4kgs. So now I have to make the most of my shrunken stomach and not put all that weight back on!!!
Saw Jo while I was home. She is like a mum to me. She ripped some tendons apart in her knee, and that actually prompted her to start going to the gym and upping her exercise. She runs with her dog now, and climbs big sets of stairs (130 stairs - running - 3 times once a week). And does squats at the gym with 65kg weights. Seriously? This is at 55-ish. If she can do it, what the fuck is stopping me? And with her influencing one of our other friends to do the same, it means I have some serious work to do before going home again!! Very inspiring - as well as very intimidating!! I mean, she has a heart condition, and diabetes, and a bung leg still, but is still doing this - and she looks great. I CAN do this!
Also - had a catch up with Jeremy today because he was in Auckland seeing some girl for sex for the weekend. IDEK. But I had a big cry on his shoulder too. I blame tiredness. But I still feel really isolated up here and I have to try to find a way out of that.....
Edit: I totally meant to write about crushes!!
When I was home, Dad told me that there was a musical on called "Buddy", about Buddy Holly's life and I thought, oooh that would be interesting. I like his music. Then Dad told me the guy playing Buddy was Kane Parsons, who I have had a crush on for forever - so he totally bought us tickets haha. But then I get it in my head that it should all work out and I should be with said crush (either Kane or a friend of Keirs - who I recently told I had a crush and he seemed ok about it and not at all put out or anything), and I get this amazing fantasy life of happiness, which makes my real life seem so shit in comparison though. My imaginary life is AWESOME. Thats pretty much it :)
So no more spewing since I went back into hospital last sunday. Headache comes and goes but not so bad. So overall doing much better. Viral meningitis = sucks arse!!
It couldve been intercranial hypertension - and the doctor has told me to lose weight to reduce the chances of that. Being sick has made me lose about 4kgs. So now I have to make the most of my shrunken stomach and not put all that weight back on!!!
Saw Jo while I was home. She is like a mum to me. She ripped some tendons apart in her knee, and that actually prompted her to start going to the gym and upping her exercise. She runs with her dog now, and climbs big sets of stairs (130 stairs - running - 3 times once a week). And does squats at the gym with 65kg weights. Seriously? This is at 55-ish. If she can do it, what the fuck is stopping me? And with her influencing one of our other friends to do the same, it means I have some serious work to do before going home again!! Very inspiring - as well as very intimidating!! I mean, she has a heart condition, and diabetes, and a bung leg still, but is still doing this - and she looks great. I CAN do this!
Also - had a catch up with Jeremy today because he was in Auckland seeing some girl for sex for the weekend. IDEK. But I had a big cry on his shoulder too. I blame tiredness. But I still feel really isolated up here and I have to try to find a way out of that.....
Edit: I totally meant to write about crushes!!
When I was home, Dad told me that there was a musical on called "Buddy", about Buddy Holly's life and I thought, oooh that would be interesting. I like his music. Then Dad told me the guy playing Buddy was Kane Parsons, who I have had a crush on for forever - so he totally bought us tickets haha. But then I get it in my head that it should all work out and I should be with said crush (either Kane or a friend of Keirs - who I recently told I had a crush and he seemed ok about it and not at all put out or anything), and I get this amazing fantasy life of happiness, which makes my real life seem so shit in comparison though. My imaginary life is AWESOME. Thats pretty much it :)