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Sometimes I wonder what I am trying to prove.
Am I trying to prove that I am capable of great things, things that the average person would never be able to complete? Am I trying to prove to myself that I am capable of so much more, more than I could even dare to dream of? Or am I trying to prove that youth is limitless, fear is nothing, that nervousness and self-doubt is fuel for achievement and invincibility?
Opportunities are hard to come by, by once they start they come following in troves like bees to sweet honey. There comes a point in time when I have to make a definite choice, sometimes saying 'no' is the easier option because it saves me a whole ton of grief and what-ifs and sleepless nights stressing over problems that hopefully never see the light of day. But I say 'yes'. Because I am young and hungry and greedy; every 'yes' leads to an opportunity that lets me uncover a part of me I never knew I had, every deep breath I take while shaking in fear, every unkind thought I have while scolding myself for a job not well done reveals to me my weakness, every addition to my resume I give myself an invisible pat on the back. I might not have done brilliantly, but my CV betrays nothing.
Youth is finite, but my dreams are endless.
Am I trying to prove that I am capable of great things, things that the average person would never be able to complete? Am I trying to prove to myself that I am capable of so much more, more than I could even dare to dream of? Or am I trying to prove that youth is limitless, fear is nothing, that nervousness and self-doubt is fuel for achievement and invincibility?
Opportunities are hard to come by, by once they start they come following in troves like bees to sweet honey. There comes a point in time when I have to make a definite choice, sometimes saying 'no' is the easier option because it saves me a whole ton of grief and what-ifs and sleepless nights stressing over problems that hopefully never see the light of day. But I say 'yes'. Because I am young and hungry and greedy; every 'yes' leads to an opportunity that lets me uncover a part of me I never knew I had, every deep breath I take while shaking in fear, every unkind thought I have while scolding myself for a job not well done reveals to me my weakness, every addition to my resume I give myself an invisible pat on the back. I might not have done brilliantly, but my CV betrays nothing.
Youth is finite, but my dreams are endless.