in a downward spiril...

[flipboi17]

my life is spiriling downward. it's funny cause i'm sitting outside myself watching as my life, my body, my mind slip away. am i slipping away from reality? i don't know. i don't know what's real and what's fake. i don't know i don't know i don't know anymore...who am i? have i grown up? have i stayed the same? did my mind take a giant step back to

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part 2

[troglodyte1]

Ok, so one more thing before I go. As for your lonliness and wanting a girlfriend...I totally feel ya. I get lonely at times. And sleeping with my goofy doll just isn't cuttin it these days. I want someone to cuddle with. I want a girl. I want love. But I'm never going to find it by looking for it. And niether are you. It's hard because sometimes we go to the club and I tell myself, "ok, I'm not going to look for anyone, I'm not going to expect anything...I'm just going to go, dance, and have fun with my friends." But no matter how much I tell myself that...hello! I have eyes! It's hard. But you know what? The one time I actually didn't "hunt" for a girl is the one time I actually danced with a girl and gave her my number. So, what am I trying to say? I don't know. I'm rambling. But I think what I'm trying to say is be patient because love will come to you eventually. It may not be today, tomorrow, or next week, but it will find you. And you will find it. I believe there is someone out there for everyone. Someone for me and someone for you. And one day we'll both find that special girl, but until then...we have to be patient. I'm trying to focus on me, my life, and what I need to do to improve it. And I think when I'm more focused, stable, and when my life falls into place a little better, thats when love will fall into place too. I don't know. Who knows. Just live life day by day and take it for what it's worth. I love you buddy. And I'm here for you, ok? Call me soon.

P.S. Lol...Sorry, I guess I wrote a lot too :)