big ball of stress....
fuck....i just got back from palm springs...i didn't go there to have fun, i went there to find out what happend to my father. i got a call on thursday from my aunt. she told me that something happend to my dad while he was camping in the desert and that he's in the hospital in palm springs. i found out that he almost broke his neck and fractured and dislocated his hip. i guess he was riding his atv and ended up flying off of it and the atv landed on top of hip after my dad hit the ground. fuck..atv's weigh about 500 pounds...that's hella! the next day me and my family took a trip down south to go visit him. when i saw him i could not look at him at all. if i looked at him i would've cried. i can't cry in front of him or any of my family. he was hooked up to tubes and had a big neck brace thing on. it was so sad. i had to pick my dogs and my dads truck up in the middle of the desert...it fuckin finally hit me that i have to take care of so much shit cause he's gone. i'm living by myself and i'm scared. i don't really know how long he's going to be down there, and when he comes back i have to take care of him, myself, my animals, and go to work. i'm so stressed out. i don't have any money to spend if i need something. man..i fuckin feel like shit right now...i want it to be over.