11 hr flights have turned me into this...

[flinny_sheep]

just read everyone's lj from the past month and oh, how many things have happened since i've been gone. it's weird to be back in california - i feel as if i've been gone forever and hence detached from everyone? i don't know what's going on with my friends. i don't even know who's out for the summer and who's not. or if everyone's out by now. i

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[livingthunder]

you dont always need a group. sometimes if you dont try too hard, or if you don't especially go looking for one, it'll come to you. one day you'll just look around and suddenly realized that you're surrounded by people you love and everything will just feel perfect, just right. and even then, don't be scared you'll lose it, just realize now that hardly anything's forever. you're buddhist, too, right? =P if i remember correctly. it makes things easier :) don't be scared of being alone; in fact, learn how to, and you're set for life. then anytime in the future you'll be able to readjust just fine, starting over each time. starting over's not necessarily a bad thing. i guess this past year, my experience was a little differnet. i started out antisocial, i didn't really want to meet that many people. i didnt think there was a point to going out there and introducing myself to everything that walked and had two hands and feet and talked back. my high school friends thought i was crazy, but i just knew deep down that i would eventually find the right people. i just had to wait, be patient, and slowly develop relationships with people i met and liked. i didnt want to force myself to "make friends." and so, first semester, i was alone a lot of the time. it was hard, but it was good, too. i learned a lot about myself, at least. that's always good right? and even in the worst, worst, WORST of times, good friends are always there, even if you don't think so, or forget so. you can always find a friend. im sure you've gone through something like that before sometime. believe in that, and you'll be less scared in general. what's there to be frightened of if you don't mind getting hurt? gluck, and i'm here for you when you need it. consider me one of those individual friends, i guess ;)