Graduate School shit. *headdesk*
So about 99.9% of my thoughts have lately been consumed by graduate school and graduate school related decisions.
Here are the updates:
-Went to visit University of Illinois.
-Was treated like a goddess, as were 3 of the other 4 fellowship recipients. Treated to meals, put up in a Hilton with a king sized bed. Amazing. The program sounds like a really really good fit (I'll even be able to do research!) and I'll be able to get done in a year and a half.
- LOVE my fellow fellows (lol). One in particular, Aquanette, I could just talk to for hours. She wants to live with me next year. We all got drunk and talked about social issues. Heaven.
- Basically just about loved everyone I was put in contact with, except one snotty prospective social work student.
- Liked the city a lot. Seems to be a pretty safe, clean place in general. Has a lot of different vibes going depending on where you go. There's a commercial district with any of the chains that you would want, GORGEOUS GORGEOUS CAMPUS, a college district with cool places, and a little mom-and-pop type of section with a real down-home kind of feel
- MINUS: it's pretty much all white, except for the "unsafe" neighborhoods.
UNFORTUNATELY
- Matt did NOT get into Illinois. Shit. That means if I go there, that is an additional year and a half of long-distanceness. This time increased trifold. I have many feelings about this. You probably don't want to bring it up to me, because I will talk for an hour.
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- Really am tempted to burn University of Michigan to the ground. Alas, I have many lovely friends who go there. I promise I will give you warning if I do end up fire bombing.
- so while I've got both Illinois and Jane Addams like basically begging me to go there, U of M gave me shit for money, and then, when I had a phone appointment, didn't do anything to sweeten the offer, but told me I can "apply for re-review." Their attitude is really pissing me off. Why would I want to go to a school that could clearly give less of a shit about me when I have two schools that go out of their way to tell me every single fucking time I talk to them what an honor it would be to have me as a student there, one of which is OH FIRST IN THE NATION FOR CLINICAL SOCIAL WORK and the OTHER IS FOURTH.
- Dear U of M, I know you're first in the nation for Social Work in general, but not for my field. Stop acting like you're the shit. I'm a good fucking student and I hate you.
UNFORTUNATELY
- This sick fucking grovelling that I have to do for them to throw me a fucking scrap is my last chance of staying in the same vicinity as Matt. So it's my pride vs. my desire to not be 6 hours away from my fiance. I also have a lot of feelings about this. You probably don't want to ask me about them. I will probably start screaming.
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- Jane Addams is kind of a blip on my radar at this point
- I'm going to visit in a week and some change. Everyone I know who's visited was NOT impressed. What a shame, because it's supposed to be the best program in the world... and maybe Laura will still be in the city, and Liz Hart definitely will be, and I feel like this might soften my difficulties with the continuing distance between me and Matt.
- The guy that I talk to at Jane Addams, I don't know how to feel about. He is possibly the most flattering creature on earth, and got REALLY MAD when I talked to him about U of M, and said basically that it's ridiculous the way they're treating me and that if they want me, they should be actively recruiting me. (That's the problem, they don't want me.) However, he interrupts a lot. Not a good quality in a social worker.
So yeah... right now, I dunno what I'm going to do. Illinois is at 85% right now, but the thought of more than doubling the already difficult amount of time I can't live with Matt, well, it kind of tears my heart out. However, I'm not going to go, oh, $80,000 in debt to go to a school that clearly doesn't value me, just because I'm sentimental. If they sweeten the deal significantly, it may be a conundrum. Right now... it's a race between Jane Addams and University of Illinois, and Illinois has a significant head start. I guess those fond dreams about getting an apartment together as soon as this summer are pretty much shattered.
Here are the updates:
-Went to visit University of Illinois.
-Was treated like a goddess, as were 3 of the other 4 fellowship recipients. Treated to meals, put up in a Hilton with a king sized bed. Amazing. The program sounds like a really really good fit (I'll even be able to do research!) and I'll be able to get done in a year and a half.
- LOVE my fellow fellows (lol). One in particular, Aquanette, I could just talk to for hours. She wants to live with me next year. We all got drunk and talked about social issues. Heaven.
- Basically just about loved everyone I was put in contact with, except one snotty prospective social work student.
- Liked the city a lot. Seems to be a pretty safe, clean place in general. Has a lot of different vibes going depending on where you go. There's a commercial district with any of the chains that you would want, GORGEOUS GORGEOUS CAMPUS, a college district with cool places, and a little mom-and-pop type of section with a real down-home kind of feel
- MINUS: it's pretty much all white, except for the "unsafe" neighborhoods.
UNFORTUNATELY
- Matt did NOT get into Illinois. Shit. That means if I go there, that is an additional year and a half of long-distanceness. This time increased trifold. I have many feelings about this. You probably don't want to bring it up to me, because I will talk for an hour.
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- Really am tempted to burn University of Michigan to the ground. Alas, I have many lovely friends who go there. I promise I will give you warning if I do end up fire bombing.
- so while I've got both Illinois and Jane Addams like basically begging me to go there, U of M gave me shit for money, and then, when I had a phone appointment, didn't do anything to sweeten the offer, but told me I can "apply for re-review." Their attitude is really pissing me off. Why would I want to go to a school that could clearly give less of a shit about me when I have two schools that go out of their way to tell me every single fucking time I talk to them what an honor it would be to have me as a student there, one of which is OH FIRST IN THE NATION FOR CLINICAL SOCIAL WORK and the OTHER IS FOURTH.
- Dear U of M, I know you're first in the nation for Social Work in general, but not for my field. Stop acting like you're the shit. I'm a good fucking student and I hate you.
UNFORTUNATELY
- This sick fucking grovelling that I have to do for them to throw me a fucking scrap is my last chance of staying in the same vicinity as Matt. So it's my pride vs. my desire to not be 6 hours away from my fiance. I also have a lot of feelings about this. You probably don't want to ask me about them. I will probably start screaming.
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- Jane Addams is kind of a blip on my radar at this point
- I'm going to visit in a week and some change. Everyone I know who's visited was NOT impressed. What a shame, because it's supposed to be the best program in the world... and maybe Laura will still be in the city, and Liz Hart definitely will be, and I feel like this might soften my difficulties with the continuing distance between me and Matt.
- The guy that I talk to at Jane Addams, I don't know how to feel about. He is possibly the most flattering creature on earth, and got REALLY MAD when I talked to him about U of M, and said basically that it's ridiculous the way they're treating me and that if they want me, they should be actively recruiting me. (That's the problem, they don't want me.) However, he interrupts a lot. Not a good quality in a social worker.
So yeah... right now, I dunno what I'm going to do. Illinois is at 85% right now, but the thought of more than doubling the already difficult amount of time I can't live with Matt, well, it kind of tears my heart out. However, I'm not going to go, oh, $80,000 in debt to go to a school that clearly doesn't value me, just because I'm sentimental. If they sweeten the deal significantly, it may be a conundrum. Right now... it's a race between Jane Addams and University of Illinois, and Illinois has a significant head start. I guess those fond dreams about getting an apartment together as soon as this summer are pretty much shattered.