Everything I ever dreamed to be exciting, simply sucks. there is something wrong with me. I don't think I can feel anymore I can't sleep anymore, and I surely won't be able to dream. I'm never doing this again. Ever. I don't want to live like this anymore but everytime I overcome something, there's another thing waiting for me, and smacks me in the ( Read more... )

and I need you, like the dragonfly's wings need the wind...............

saturday night my boss yelled at me,

i tried not to cry, but i ended up bursting into tears.

I just couldn't stop crying, i didnt understand why i was crying so hard.

It just kept coming, for almost two hours i was balling like a baby.

I didnt even think i was that vulnerable.

Missy and I were coming home- we just pulled onto our road, just as my parents and brother were leaving. So naturally, both vehicles pulled over and rolled down their windows. They said they were going to my grandparents house and asked if we wanted to come along, missy and i said no...so here I am, at home with just me and my sister here :) it ( Read more... )

after a long and exhausting day at work, I slowly walked out to the parking lot, and saw my mom's vehicle. She must have seen me coming, because she pulled forward, as if trying to be more noticeable. I walked to the vehicle at a steady pace, relieved that i could finally go home and sleep. I got in the vehicle, and stayed as unsociable as I could ( Read more... )

I decided to go to the mission early last night. I got there at about 6:30 even though the show started at 8:30. I sat on a comfy couch, and tried to grasp what exacty draws me to that place. Maybe its the colors in the room, and they way everything is arranged to create an appealing atmosphere. Maybe, I'm drawn to the music. Or maybe, i just wish ( Read more... )

The first 2 or 3 times i wanted to buy weed, the person i was getting it from couldn't find any- the guy he usually always got it from didnt have any, and for the 2 years he's gotten it from him, he's NEVER not had any. so they were all, "you're bad luck...the only two times we couldnt get any was the only two times we invited you to smoke with us ( Read more... )

David Gilmour is was sooo attractive.

(click to see 'm)

but...thats not why I like him. He's so talented, and even though he's kind of old now, he can still play guitar and sing. how cool.

Youth Convention was simply amazing. I am so glad i went, because the whole week preceding convention, i thought about not going. i wanted to stay here and sneak out to the mission to see some dumb guy. I thought I would have benefited more seeing a guy that blows me off, than experiencing God who desires me. I've been living a lie for so long now ( Read more... )

Autumns MonologueOh why cant I be what you need ( Read more... )