Yay
So I have to say that I had a wonderful weekend. I spent Saturday with Amber and her brother Ben who doubles as my ex, and thoroughly enjoyed myself. Ben and I are on perfectly good terms and get along great so we had tons of fun. Amber had her camera and so we had a phote shoot of the 3 of us and their were some great pictures. There's one where I'm trying to kiss Ben on the cheek and Ben is pulling away from me with a luck of utter disgust on his face. Watch for it on Myspace because Amber should be sending it to me sometime soon along with many others. So then I went to the community theatre play thing to see Rachel in Roger and Hammerstein's "State Fair." It was pretty good. I really think we would've done better as far as set goes, because like Bluegrass, this company doesn't have their own theatre so they have to be able to remove all their props every weekend. That and the backstage area is like itsy-bitsy. (I would know, I acted in that theatre a lot my freshman year) and they had a cast of like 40 or something. So props really had to be minimul (or however you spell that).
So during intermission I decided to delete Rene's # from my phone. I did this because I compulsively text and call him, and I need to stop. I'm tired of begging him for his time, but I don't really want to leave him. So I decided that if I leave him alone he will have to come to me, and I have to say it worked quite brilliantly cause he called today and texted and was like really wanting to see me and it made me happy and did my ego a ton of good, and this is the longest sentence in history which makes me think that it isn't grammatically correct whatsoever. Ahahahahaa. I'm in such a good mood today and have been like almost all weekend. (well, deleting the number was a brief low point because I felt the need to cry briefly) Then again the good mood might have something to do with the lack of sleep and the Vault that I basically chugged so I could safely drive home. Thats probably it lol.
In case yall are wondering, I do know his number off the top of my head if I ever need him for something while we're on this phase. But I figure if I can't scroll to his number out of habit I'm less likely to call or text. I have 10 numbers (area code) to talk myself out of it, and ask myself which is more important -- what I want to say or my pride...I feel very empowered right now.
So during intermission I decided to delete Rene's # from my phone. I did this because I compulsively text and call him, and I need to stop. I'm tired of begging him for his time, but I don't really want to leave him. So I decided that if I leave him alone he will have to come to me, and I have to say it worked quite brilliantly cause he called today and texted and was like really wanting to see me and it made me happy and did my ego a ton of good, and this is the longest sentence in history which makes me think that it isn't grammatically correct whatsoever. Ahahahahaa. I'm in such a good mood today and have been like almost all weekend. (well, deleting the number was a brief low point because I felt the need to cry briefly) Then again the good mood might have something to do with the lack of sleep and the Vault that I basically chugged so I could safely drive home. Thats probably it lol.
In case yall are wondering, I do know his number off the top of my head if I ever need him for something while we're on this phase. But I figure if I can't scroll to his number out of habit I'm less likely to call or text. I have 10 numbers (area code) to talk myself out of it, and ask myself which is more important -- what I want to say or my pride...I feel very empowered right now.