try try again?
people familiar with me and my online activities know that i can be an obsessive stalker. just now i took a look at my ex-bf's blog which i had been checking somewhat religiously for a time but have been distracted from the past few days by time spent with T. in it appears the bitter and defeated musings of what used to be the thing of dorkness i held most dear. in our last conversation M averred that he would come after me and that we needed time to be apart and perhaps see other ppl (though im pretty sure he meant this just for me, hes not really the quick rebound type). now im seeing that hes given up and i am very surely his ex and he doesnt want to date anyone for a very very long time.
this bothers me for a couple reasons. and i was going to enumerate them but it just seems pointless now.
argh, but he wanted me to be apart from him and date other ppl so that i could be sure that he was the right person for me, and perhaps he isnt but i havent even fully figured that out yet. it takes time. and at the very mention on my myspace that im finally ready to consider the possibility of dating someone else (kinda more seriously) he starts drinking heavily. i think that perhaps another ex was right about him in saying that he likes to suffer. he likes to be able to complain. though i never believed this before, i might start to believe it now. i do still think very highly of him. and at one point i wished him all the happiness in the world. now im thinking that hed refuse it outright.
this bothers me for a couple reasons. and i was going to enumerate them but it just seems pointless now.
argh, but he wanted me to be apart from him and date other ppl so that i could be sure that he was the right person for me, and perhaps he isnt but i havent even fully figured that out yet. it takes time. and at the very mention on my myspace that im finally ready to consider the possibility of dating someone else (kinda more seriously) he starts drinking heavily. i think that perhaps another ex was right about him in saying that he likes to suffer. he likes to be able to complain. though i never believed this before, i might start to believe it now. i do still think very highly of him. and at one point i wished him all the happiness in the world. now im thinking that hed refuse it outright.