I think the Southern heat is getting to me
When I was 15 I spent a few weeks of the summer at Long Lake in Alpena, MI. I remember my age only because I was triggered by a BBMAK song that I associate with this trip, and I just looked up on bestbuy.com that the album came out May 2000. Simple math.
I remember listening to the British pop boyband obsessively during the vacation. My step sister, Sarah, and I boy-chased, mentally attaching ourselves to "cute" boys we were too chicken to actually talk to. Looking back, it is really too bad that we were more friendly, though we still had lots of fun with just each others' company.
I guess we thought these boys were going to magically talk to us, somehow sensing our adolescent crushes. We'd strategically place ourselves near, but not too close to these boys, playing on a floating dock in the lake, or sand volleyball on the beach.
All we really got were a few random pictures of those "cute" boys, taken from a distance, obviously. I don't even remember their names.
I listened to BBMAK and really believed someone was going to love me like those hot Brits sang about in their silly songs. I couldn't really picture how it was going to happen, it was just going to magically happen.
Only it hasn't. Not really. Obviously I'd had a few relationships, but they're never what you think they are going to be. There are some good things, some bad. The world is not perfect, but I still wonder if somehow, something will one day magically happen.
Something that isn't interrupted by stupid egos, or inconvenient schedules. It won't bring a lot of stress, comes easy, and just makes me happy. Something simple.
Simply wonderful.
I remember listening to the British pop boyband obsessively during the vacation. My step sister, Sarah, and I boy-chased, mentally attaching ourselves to "cute" boys we were too chicken to actually talk to. Looking back, it is really too bad that we were more friendly, though we still had lots of fun with just each others' company.
I guess we thought these boys were going to magically talk to us, somehow sensing our adolescent crushes. We'd strategically place ourselves near, but not too close to these boys, playing on a floating dock in the lake, or sand volleyball on the beach.
All we really got were a few random pictures of those "cute" boys, taken from a distance, obviously. I don't even remember their names.
I listened to BBMAK and really believed someone was going to love me like those hot Brits sang about in their silly songs. I couldn't really picture how it was going to happen, it was just going to magically happen.
Only it hasn't. Not really. Obviously I'd had a few relationships, but they're never what you think they are going to be. There are some good things, some bad. The world is not perfect, but I still wonder if somehow, something will one day magically happen.
Something that isn't interrupted by stupid egos, or inconvenient schedules. It won't bring a lot of stress, comes easy, and just makes me happy. Something simple.
Simply wonderful.