Crazy shit.
Hey ya'll! I'm in literature class writing a research paper on peer pressure, but not really. I'm pretty bored here. And in the back of my mind is what my gf's parents are going to say to her at the big talk after school. Yesterday her mom told her to home right after school so they could talk. Then her little sister overheard her mom and stepdad saying "don't worry, they're going to break up soon anyway. And he's going to college next year so it won't last....." blah blah blah. His mom is also pretty mad that she has two hickies on her neck, she's very against any sexual activity before marriage. That sucks. So we're thinking that she is going to ask her if we're having sex and give her an anti-sex-with-Flay talk. Shit, seems like I'm not much appreciated over there! No, I'm just kidding. It's only by her mom and stepdad that I'm predicted to find a new gf soon. They said "She'll dump him or he'll find a new girl soon." That's so not nice. That is such a horrible thought. It makes me want to throw up to think about it. How could that ever happen? It seems so unheard of it makes me sick, like literaly. I don't know why I'm getting all worked up about this. Her mom can't do anything and she won't. I hope she knows she can't do anything cause it would be so much easier if she doesn't even try cause she knows better. I'm really scared about whatever they're thinking but I don't have a reason to really. We'll be together always so what am I worried about? Maybe that's the problem, I don't want to be on their bad side because I'll be around a while, I think anyway. Yeah, why not? Holy shit, I'm getting such bad thoughts through my head now. Before I was only worried about what the talk was about after school today. But now that I'm foolishly thinking about it too much, I'm getting thoughts like how I need to be on the family's good side cause I'll be around a while, that scares me although it shouldn't and I'm getting over it. But the really sick part is what if this talk leads to other shit. For example, her mom and stepdad could talk to my parents, they could never let me come over anymore, she could be shipped to New Jersey with her dad (which would be good for her actually), or she could move out and have to pay for an apartment and then have to work all the time and be broke (she would hate working all the time). But hey, I just had a thought. I bet if I talk to my parents, like really talk to my parents, they would let her stay at my house for a few days if she had to. I don't think it would ever come down to that, but I have some totally obsured thoughts right now. It's terrible and really exagerated. All this craziness I just thought of, it's all bullshit. It's not that big of a deal, I'm just over-reacting, right? Geez, chill out Flay. It's all good. I love her and that's what counts, so what could get in the way?.... My age, his parents, my parents, grades, my sister, etc...........shithead!