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so yesterday i was off of work.. but i ended up having to go to the doctor. he was all pissed because i lost one pound. and i tried explaining to him that i just recently got a job and had to work 7 days straight when i'm used to sitting on my ass and doing nothing but being a fucking couch potato. well he says i shouldn't be working 7 days straight. i agree. but, i need money. i need to help michael out. & we're fixing to have custody of michael's sister, and she will be moved up here officially saturday afternoon around 4.
needless to say, the doctors visit went ok. he was trying to hear the heart beat and i was having contractions and he says during contractions you can't hear the heart beat. he tried for around 10 minutes, and i was getting scared shitless. then finally i heard my babys beautiful noise. it made me so happy. then he wanted me to piss in a cup, well i couldn't because i pissed right before we got to the doctors office. gahhh. i ended up squeezing out enough, one little drop. turns out my protein is ok. mwahaha.
i have to be at work today at 4. and i really don't look forward to it, but that's ok. i get paid tonight but it's all gone. i have to buy aerial a bus ticket up here.. that's $89.50, and then when michael comes up there to help me close, i'm giving him money to go to subway and get us some grub. i hope i get money for christmas. i have to work christmas day but maybe dad'll bring my gifts to work. i hope so. because i don't think it's right that just because i'm working, i don't get presents. i volunteered to work just because i'll get paid $11.25 a hour, working 6 hours.. and to me, you know me not having a job the last 7 months, that seems like a good deal. we'll be extremely busy, and i have to open, but maybe it'll go by faster than i'm expecting. :) i just won't be able to spend christmas with michael because he'll be at grannys house where he goes every year. him and aerial both. so when i get off at 1, i'll be all alone for a majority of the remainder of the night.. :( sad..
but i can tell you one thing, i will not work any holidays next year, i will not work when i have a baby to spoil. :) i don't care if it's $100 a hour, you don't need to miss your babys first holidays.. and i'm not going to.
i have to be at work at 4 today.. i'm off tomorrow.. and i have to be there at 5am saturday.. meaning i have to find a ride.. i don't know the schedule for sunday yet. she didn't have it posted tuesday when i worked. she should have it up today though. i'd like to know when i work christmas eve. or maybe she is being a doll and letting me have christmas eve off, doubtful.. very doubtful..
well, i'm 30 weeks pregnant.. 7 1/2 months.. i'm supposed to have 1 1/2 month left.. that'll make me due around the middle of february.. i'm so excited, yet scared at the same time.. i'm still a teenager.. i don't want this kind of responsibility. and you know, i say all of this, but i know this baby will be the greatest thing that's ever happened in my life, and i'll never want to let 'em go.
ok, well, i'm going to go.. going to check my hotmail.. & going to see if maybe, just maybe, i can be lucky enough to get myspace to come up.. then i'm going home to play the GAMECUBE! spyro is calling my name..
"jessssicaaaaa...."
ok, beautiful. g'day.
4 days until christmas, and just in case i don't have the chance to get back on.. merry christmas everyone. i hope everyone gets what they want. be thinking of me when you're opening your christmas presents and i'm sitting at work.. :P
[Currently...]
currently reading: Stephen King - It
currently listening to: Typing..
currently writing: This
currently watching: This screen.
currently wishing: I didn't have to work tonight.
currently wanting: Michael to get off work?..
currently crushing on: My Michael.
currently in [what room are you in]: The library.
currently wearing: Black bowling shirt, light blue Harley Davidson hoodie, and blue jeans.. Black Etnies.
[What's to your...]
whats to your right?: An empty cubicle.
whats to your left?: A bunch of shelves.
whats in front of you?: This screen.
whats behind you?: More shelves.
[Favorites]
favorite book[s]: ZigZag - Ellen Wittlinger
favorite song[s]: Eh.. I donno.
favorite band[s]: A lot.
favorite writer[s]: Stephen King
favorite food[s]: Macaroni & Cheese.
favorite color[s]: Black & Blue
favorite subject in school: Drama.
favorite room in your house: Bedroom.
favorite place to be: I like my house, honestly.
favorite movie[s]: Save The Last Dance.
favorite tv show[s]: Family Guy.
favorite store[s]: Wal-Mart! Cheap. :)
favorite clothing brands[s]: Anything comfortable & cheap.
[Love Life]
boyfriend/girlfriend?: Boyfriend.
if so, how long?: 13 months.
if not, do you want one?: --
who do you like?: --
have you ever told anyone [other than family members] you loved them?: Yes
did you mean it?: I always mean it
how many guys have you kissed?: I donno.
how many girls have you kissed?: Zero.
how many guys have you dated?: Enough.
how many girls have you dated?: 0
what do you look for in a boyfriend or girlfriend? [physically]: Everything Michael has.
what do you look for in a boyfriend or girlfriend? [personality]: Everything Michael has.
longest relationship?: This one.
shortest relationship?: Like, less than a day.
[Have You Ever...]
had sex?: Yup
given oral sex?: Yup
recieved oral sex?: Yup.
drank alcohol?: Yup.
smoked?: Yup.
[Do You...]
drink alcohol?: Not at the moment.
smoke?: Yup.
watch porn?: No.
do drugs?: No.
self-harm?: No.
[Your Bed]
size: Queen
sheets: White with baby blue stripes.
how many pillows: 2 for me, 2 for him, plus a body pillow we both use.
stuffed animals: None on the bed.
[Odds n Ends]
Obsessions: Nothing, really..
bad habits: Smoking.. Biting my nails.. Blowing things out of proportion.
weird fact about yourself: I don't know.
what kind of music are you into?: Rock.
best concert: Blaze Ya Dead Homie.
[This or That]
summer or winter: Winter.
spring or fall: Fall.
summer or fall: Fall.
winter or spring: Winter.
clean or dirty: clean
night or day: Night
rain or shine: Rain.
grass or pavement: Grass
radio or cds: CD's.
vhs or dvd: DVD
board games or computer games: Board games
light or dark: dark
movies or mall: movies
football or hockey: hockey
hockey or lacrosse: hockey
[What do you think when you hear...]
metallica: Good music.
britney spears: white trash
christina aguilera: meh
kiss: Paul Stanley
queen:
good charlotte: eew
simple plan: sucks
thursday:
bright eyes:
bad religion:
bad company: good
scorpions: also good
journey: steve perry
otown:
backstreet boys:
[In Your Own Words]
your life motto: Live day by day, you never know what'll happen next.
[Quotes]
favorite quote:
favorite lyric:
favorite oxymoron:
[Personal Hygiene]
do you shower every day?: Every other day.
what toothpaste do you use?: Some kind of citrus orange stuff.
do you floss?: No. But I should.
mouthwash?: Crest wintergreen, or something.
deoderant?: Some vanilla stuff.
shampoo?: Suave.
conditioner?: Suave.
body wash?: Vanilla.
face wash?:
[Make-up]
foundation?: no
powder?: no
eyeliner?: no way
mascara?: no
eyeshadow?: no
lipstick or lipgloss?: no
[Primping]
shaving or waxing?: Shaving
tweezing or waxing?: Neither had to do either.
barber or salon?: I dno.
straightening or curling?: Neither, hairs naturally straight and I like it that way.
[Looks]
hair color: Strawberry blonde
eye color: Blue
skin color: white
nail color:
height: 5'5"
build: fat cuz i'm pregnant.
[How Often Do You...]
go shopping?: when we have money. usually every friday.
go to the movies?: haven't gone to the movies in months.
go out for dinner?: try to do it once a week. ends up being maybe twice a month.
clean: bout 2 or 3 times a week.
exercise: never. all i do is walk, which i guess you could consider exercising.
watch tv: when i get up with michael in the mornings.. when cartoons are on.. (family guy simpsons king of the hill, etc) when we have new movies
read: every chance i get. 5 or 6 times a day.
go online: try to daily never works out that way tho.
Oh, and I still don't understand why noone is sending me a letter in the mail. I have to tell ya.. If you do plan on keeping contact with me after this weekend, and you don't have Cingular.. That's the only way you're going to be able to keep in touch, is sending me a letter.
22 Gloster Court
Malvern, AR 72104
Either do or don't, it doesn't matter. Keep contact or not, it's up to you.
G'day.
needless to say, the doctors visit went ok. he was trying to hear the heart beat and i was having contractions and he says during contractions you can't hear the heart beat. he tried for around 10 minutes, and i was getting scared shitless. then finally i heard my babys beautiful noise. it made me so happy. then he wanted me to piss in a cup, well i couldn't because i pissed right before we got to the doctors office. gahhh. i ended up squeezing out enough, one little drop. turns out my protein is ok. mwahaha.
i have to be at work today at 4. and i really don't look forward to it, but that's ok. i get paid tonight but it's all gone. i have to buy aerial a bus ticket up here.. that's $89.50, and then when michael comes up there to help me close, i'm giving him money to go to subway and get us some grub. i hope i get money for christmas. i have to work christmas day but maybe dad'll bring my gifts to work. i hope so. because i don't think it's right that just because i'm working, i don't get presents. i volunteered to work just because i'll get paid $11.25 a hour, working 6 hours.. and to me, you know me not having a job the last 7 months, that seems like a good deal. we'll be extremely busy, and i have to open, but maybe it'll go by faster than i'm expecting. :) i just won't be able to spend christmas with michael because he'll be at grannys house where he goes every year. him and aerial both. so when i get off at 1, i'll be all alone for a majority of the remainder of the night.. :( sad..
but i can tell you one thing, i will not work any holidays next year, i will not work when i have a baby to spoil. :) i don't care if it's $100 a hour, you don't need to miss your babys first holidays.. and i'm not going to.
i have to be at work at 4 today.. i'm off tomorrow.. and i have to be there at 5am saturday.. meaning i have to find a ride.. i don't know the schedule for sunday yet. she didn't have it posted tuesday when i worked. she should have it up today though. i'd like to know when i work christmas eve. or maybe she is being a doll and letting me have christmas eve off, doubtful.. very doubtful..
well, i'm 30 weeks pregnant.. 7 1/2 months.. i'm supposed to have 1 1/2 month left.. that'll make me due around the middle of february.. i'm so excited, yet scared at the same time.. i'm still a teenager.. i don't want this kind of responsibility. and you know, i say all of this, but i know this baby will be the greatest thing that's ever happened in my life, and i'll never want to let 'em go.
ok, well, i'm going to go.. going to check my hotmail.. & going to see if maybe, just maybe, i can be lucky enough to get myspace to come up.. then i'm going home to play the GAMECUBE! spyro is calling my name..
"jessssicaaaaa...."
ok, beautiful. g'day.
4 days until christmas, and just in case i don't have the chance to get back on.. merry christmas everyone. i hope everyone gets what they want. be thinking of me when you're opening your christmas presents and i'm sitting at work.. :P
[Currently...]
currently reading: Stephen King - It
currently listening to: Typing..
currently writing: This
currently watching: This screen.
currently wishing: I didn't have to work tonight.
currently wanting: Michael to get off work?..
currently crushing on: My Michael.
currently in [what room are you in]: The library.
currently wearing: Black bowling shirt, light blue Harley Davidson hoodie, and blue jeans.. Black Etnies.
[What's to your...]
whats to your right?: An empty cubicle.
whats to your left?: A bunch of shelves.
whats in front of you?: This screen.
whats behind you?: More shelves.
[Favorites]
favorite book[s]: ZigZag - Ellen Wittlinger
favorite song[s]: Eh.. I donno.
favorite band[s]: A lot.
favorite writer[s]: Stephen King
favorite food[s]: Macaroni & Cheese.
favorite color[s]: Black & Blue
favorite subject in school: Drama.
favorite room in your house: Bedroom.
favorite place to be: I like my house, honestly.
favorite movie[s]: Save The Last Dance.
favorite tv show[s]: Family Guy.
favorite store[s]: Wal-Mart! Cheap. :)
favorite clothing brands[s]: Anything comfortable & cheap.
[Love Life]
boyfriend/girlfriend?: Boyfriend.
if so, how long?: 13 months.
if not, do you want one?: --
who do you like?: --
have you ever told anyone [other than family members] you loved them?: Yes
did you mean it?: I always mean it
how many guys have you kissed?: I donno.
how many girls have you kissed?: Zero.
how many guys have you dated?: Enough.
how many girls have you dated?: 0
what do you look for in a boyfriend or girlfriend? [physically]: Everything Michael has.
what do you look for in a boyfriend or girlfriend? [personality]: Everything Michael has.
longest relationship?: This one.
shortest relationship?: Like, less than a day.
[Have You Ever...]
had sex?: Yup
given oral sex?: Yup
recieved oral sex?: Yup.
drank alcohol?: Yup.
smoked?: Yup.
[Do You...]
drink alcohol?: Not at the moment.
smoke?: Yup.
watch porn?: No.
do drugs?: No.
self-harm?: No.
[Your Bed]
size: Queen
sheets: White with baby blue stripes.
how many pillows: 2 for me, 2 for him, plus a body pillow we both use.
stuffed animals: None on the bed.
[Odds n Ends]
Obsessions: Nothing, really..
bad habits: Smoking.. Biting my nails.. Blowing things out of proportion.
weird fact about yourself: I don't know.
what kind of music are you into?: Rock.
best concert: Blaze Ya Dead Homie.
[This or That]
summer or winter: Winter.
spring or fall: Fall.
summer or fall: Fall.
winter or spring: Winter.
clean or dirty: clean
night or day: Night
rain or shine: Rain.
grass or pavement: Grass
radio or cds: CD's.
vhs or dvd: DVD
board games or computer games: Board games
light or dark: dark
movies or mall: movies
football or hockey: hockey
hockey or lacrosse: hockey
[What do you think when you hear...]
metallica: Good music.
britney spears: white trash
christina aguilera: meh
kiss: Paul Stanley
queen:
good charlotte: eew
simple plan: sucks
thursday:
bright eyes:
bad religion:
bad company: good
scorpions: also good
journey: steve perry
otown:
backstreet boys:
[In Your Own Words]
your life motto: Live day by day, you never know what'll happen next.
[Quotes]
favorite quote:
favorite lyric:
favorite oxymoron:
[Personal Hygiene]
do you shower every day?: Every other day.
what toothpaste do you use?: Some kind of citrus orange stuff.
do you floss?: No. But I should.
mouthwash?: Crest wintergreen, or something.
deoderant?: Some vanilla stuff.
shampoo?: Suave.
conditioner?: Suave.
body wash?: Vanilla.
face wash?:
[Make-up]
foundation?: no
powder?: no
eyeliner?: no way
mascara?: no
eyeshadow?: no
lipstick or lipgloss?: no
[Primping]
shaving or waxing?: Shaving
tweezing or waxing?: Neither had to do either.
barber or salon?: I dno.
straightening or curling?: Neither, hairs naturally straight and I like it that way.
[Looks]
hair color: Strawberry blonde
eye color: Blue
skin color: white
nail color:
height: 5'5"
build: fat cuz i'm pregnant.
[How Often Do You...]
go shopping?: when we have money. usually every friday.
go to the movies?: haven't gone to the movies in months.
go out for dinner?: try to do it once a week. ends up being maybe twice a month.
clean: bout 2 or 3 times a week.
exercise: never. all i do is walk, which i guess you could consider exercising.
watch tv: when i get up with michael in the mornings.. when cartoons are on.. (family guy simpsons king of the hill, etc) when we have new movies
read: every chance i get. 5 or 6 times a day.
go online: try to daily never works out that way tho.
Oh, and I still don't understand why noone is sending me a letter in the mail. I have to tell ya.. If you do plan on keeping contact with me after this weekend, and you don't have Cingular.. That's the only way you're going to be able to keep in touch, is sending me a letter.
22 Gloster Court
Malvern, AR 72104
Either do or don't, it doesn't matter. Keep contact or not, it's up to you.
G'day.