#18 - Life.
So, returned from Göttingen on Monday. I was so pissy and annoyed on the drive back. Ugh. The walk to the train station with Anna and Alfred was okay, then I sat on the train and I still felt somewhat good. And then I arrived at Osterode where Geela wanted to pick me up from the station. Then she told me, we would have to get some tea with Elric's parents before leaving. Seriously? I don't know these people and don't really want to spend my time with them. Sure, they're nice and all, but I just wanted to go home. At the table, I was seriously half in tears all the time, partly because I was tired, but also because I already missed Göttingen so much. I'm seriously tearing up again as I type this. I miss my big sister and the city and their flat and everything so much. I love being there and I really feel loved by all the people there and I hate it here so much. :( I'm definitely keeping a second piggy bank for Göttingen now, where I put all my extra money into so I can suprise-visit them some more.
Y'know, I feel good when I am there. I am comfortable there and I feel like I can be myself, without having to watch out for what I'm saying/doing. Everyday is awesome and even when my sister is constantly a bit pissed off (not at me, but just people), it's still good. She has some alone time, I clean the flat, and it's fine.
After Angels & Demons (which was good, but not more), we sat in the kitchen, drank wine and talked. That was so relaxing and nice. And I just miss her. Plus I don't have any bad bingeing problems when I'm there. That's so nice.
Aside from that not much has happened here. Of course not. But that is good, I think. If something does happen, it's always murder and bad.
I really need to start thinking what I want to do with my life.
Y'know, I feel good when I am there. I am comfortable there and I feel like I can be myself, without having to watch out for what I'm saying/doing. Everyday is awesome and even when my sister is constantly a bit pissed off (not at me, but just people), it's still good. She has some alone time, I clean the flat, and it's fine.
After Angels & Demons (which was good, but not more), we sat in the kitchen, drank wine and talked. That was so relaxing and nice. And I just miss her. Plus I don't have any bad bingeing problems when I'm there. That's so nice.
Aside from that not much has happened here. Of course not. But that is good, I think. If something does happen, it's always murder and bad.
I really need to start thinking what I want to do with my life.