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I am scared and even more terrified of showing my fear, so when I feel that anyone may have caught even a slight
glimpse at this, I can't help, but lose control. I ramble in a code that can't be cracked, and produce this ridiculous
confusion for no actual reason at all, except that I utterly panic, thanks to some eccentric anxiety. It's this deplorable defense
mechanism that I just need to stop more than anything, but in all honesty, it's all I know. However, if I just refrain from doing this,
I have no idea what I am supposed to do, but this can't continue, and I will do everything in my power to make sure it doesn't.
For the first time in my life, I am going to go into this type of situation without any discernment and just ditch any logic that my
off the wall, unbalanced emotions may attempt to provide me with in the form of a deleterious storm. This type of situation is the only time my overall
outlook on things is just fully thrown about and turned upside down, but I am going to try to keep common sense while being attached.
I think I may just give classic trust an audition this time, except maintain who I am in the process, despite everything. This shouldn't be any different
than the few people who have completely earned this stature, but I need to finally disregard some of the opposing fragments of my past and
just let it go. I can't let this bullshit ruin any hope of having anything different in the future and I am more than ready to annihilate this pattern.
There's nothing left to do, but begin to work on effectuating all of this.
glimpse at this, I can't help, but lose control. I ramble in a code that can't be cracked, and produce this ridiculous
confusion for no actual reason at all, except that I utterly panic, thanks to some eccentric anxiety. It's this deplorable defense
mechanism that I just need to stop more than anything, but in all honesty, it's all I know. However, if I just refrain from doing this,
I have no idea what I am supposed to do, but this can't continue, and I will do everything in my power to make sure it doesn't.
For the first time in my life, I am going to go into this type of situation without any discernment and just ditch any logic that my
off the wall, unbalanced emotions may attempt to provide me with in the form of a deleterious storm. This type of situation is the only time my overall
outlook on things is just fully thrown about and turned upside down, but I am going to try to keep common sense while being attached.
I think I may just give classic trust an audition this time, except maintain who I am in the process, despite everything. This shouldn't be any different
than the few people who have completely earned this stature, but I need to finally disregard some of the opposing fragments of my past and
just let it go. I can't let this bullshit ruin any hope of having anything different in the future and I am more than ready to annihilate this pattern.
There's nothing left to do, but begin to work on effectuating all of this.