graduation
i havent updated in awhile, but i felt this to be an appropriate time to do so. i hadnt felt any different after graduation or the end of the year or anything, but then this evening i was just sitting there and started to cry. i think i finally realized that its all over. and granted every beginning comes from another beginnings end, but i dont feel like im mature enough to move on. i think what affects me the most is knowing that ballet is over. ive been dancing since i was five and at my studio since i was ten and now its done. i dont have any more performances to forward to, no more little kids to teach, no more classes. its only been over for a day and already im crying about it, its just been part of my life for so long and now its gone. i can come back and visit on breaks, but it wont be the same as being a real student there. i didnt cry the last day of school or at graduation, but im crying now and i know i will cry in august when we all leave. this summer will be amazing and i know it, but right now its so hard to transition into being a high school graduate... somewhat closer to being an adult.