Come On Sweet Catastrophe..

Oct 28, 2011 01:42

I'm totally out of my element right now and the fact of the matter is, I kinda like it.

I met this guy in one of my classes a month and a half or so ago, and the more we talk..the harder it is to get him out of my head. So here I am, writing about it, because I can't contain it anymore. He's older than me by a few years, definitely more mature than any guy I've met as of yet, funny, flirty, and altogether a good person. Plus he can cook. And I think (no I know) he's smarter than me, and this is where I'm completely out of my depth. I mean, if I were to paint my picture of the ideal man, I would have a hard time finding many differences between my description and this guy. He's had so much more life experience and that is definitely part of what attracts me so strongly to him. I feel as though I've met my match.

I specifically remember one conversation I had with him about this book I was reading (which he had already read and could discuss intelligently...when's the last time THAT happened to me??) and we veered off to a conversation about whether in a relationship there's a more dominant person and more submissive person in the relationship. And, honestly, from my experiences I can attest to this being true (at least from my perspective). But he disagreed with me, saying he'd rather have someone who was equal to him rather than someone who submitted or dominated over him. And I couldn't agree to this point more completely, which I conveyed to him, but I also explained to him that I'm still waiting for that equal person that I could make decisions with and not worry about all that...And he started teasing me about being bossy (which completely isn't true haha) but I countered that I'm not bossy but I am confident and know what I want. Come to think of it we never got to finish that conversation..but I feel as if I met someone I could consider my equal.

I just broke up with my boyfriend on Monday because for a number of reasons, I just don't see it turning into anything long lasting. He wasn't my equal and we have nothing in common. And I mean seriously nothing in common. He'd rather spend his Sundays watching football while I'd rather curl up with a good book or cuddle (just as an example).

But anyway, I broke up with Kyle on Monday morning before heading off to the library where I spent the day trying to concentrate on getting some work done, and all I could think about was that I would be seeing this guy in class in a few hours. And when I finally did see him, he winked at me and my heart soared just a little bit. (He did this both before and after class, having the same effect on me each time)..

Only glitch is he's from South Africa and will more than likely be returning after his two years in the program is up..

And here's to point out why I believe everything happens for a reason: I'm not even supposed to be in this course at all, it's supposed to be a first year class (and I'm in my second year), but last year I messed up my scheduling and ended up taking an elective instead so now I have to make it up this year.. Draw your own conclusions, but I believe this happened because I was supposed to meet him. Even if nothing happens between the two of us, I have been shown that guys like this DO EXIST and I will eventually find a man that I can count as my equal.

Here's to seeing what the future brings...
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