Let Sleeping Dogs Lie...
I've just had the weirdest conversation and I swear on my life that it's so surreal that I could be dreaming. Tonight, I was leaving my boyfriend's house and I saw that I had a text from Kyle Penna. It was just so out of the blue and random. And stupid me, I answered back and we started talking a bit, catching up on each other's lives and all that. Then I was like ok this is just too weird, so I asked him why he was texting me out of the blue and here's where the conversation took a surreal turn. He said that he wanted to get something off his chest and that it wasn't easy to say but he needed to tell me that HE STARTED SEEING THE BITCH BEFORE WE EVEN BROKE UP. Ok, so part of this comes as a shock to me but on the other hand I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT. Never ever doubt your gut feeling, and my gut was screaming about this bitch from the beginning. So I ask when did they actually start dating, because at this point I'm like ok maybe they started seeing each other a week or two before we broke up. Whatever at that point. We're over I don't care. But no, he told me they starting seeing each other in MAY a full FIVE MONTHS before we broke up. He says he's felt guilty all this time and "you really were my best friend which is why I hate myself for it." I'm too numb to really have any kind of reaction right now, I just don't know what to say! What I ended up saying is "well yet again, thanks for breaking my heart, hope you two end up real happy together."
But why now? Why was today a good time to clear his conscience and ruin my day? I still have no idea why today was a good choice rather than yesterday or two weeks from now. I mean, I guess there's really no good time to tell someone that...but why 10 months after the fact?
WHYYYYYYYYYYYY I was doing GOOODDD I was making PROGRESSSS and now here I am thinking about this past bullshit. We've been over for 10 months, almost a year and I've moved past all this. I have another year before I graduate with my Masters and move into the real world, and I'm looking so forward to it. I have such a bright future ahead, and I won't let anything, much less this bullshit, slow me down. I'm pissed right now and I have no one to even discuss this or talk about it with because its so late. I just don't know how I'm supposed to handle this news. So I told him good luck with the rest of his life and if its any consolation, now i really truly do hate him. I do. I hate him so so so so much for what he did to me, and the news just seems to be getting worse and worse with this fucker. I have half a mind to get tested for STDs now! Fuck.
But why now? Why was today a good time to clear his conscience and ruin my day? I still have no idea why today was a good choice rather than yesterday or two weeks from now. I mean, I guess there's really no good time to tell someone that...but why 10 months after the fact?
WHYYYYYYYYYYYY I was doing GOOODDD I was making PROGRESSSS and now here I am thinking about this past bullshit. We've been over for 10 months, almost a year and I've moved past all this. I have another year before I graduate with my Masters and move into the real world, and I'm looking so forward to it. I have such a bright future ahead, and I won't let anything, much less this bullshit, slow me down. I'm pissed right now and I have no one to even discuss this or talk about it with because its so late. I just don't know how I'm supposed to handle this news. So I told him good luck with the rest of his life and if its any consolation, now i really truly do hate him. I do. I hate him so so so so much for what he did to me, and the news just seems to be getting worse and worse with this fucker. I have half a mind to get tested for STDs now! Fuck.