Used
I hate this life.... i hate how i live this life, lost and confused. I am tired of it....... i am tired of being this "little girl" i am tired of being sick i am tired of caring i am tired of boys i am tired of crying i am tired of missing out on the life i deserve, i cant say that he was the life i deserve ... he used me ... everyone uses me. every one did, if you comment here saying you didnt then you are full of shit.. the only guy friend i have who hasnt used me or abused me in one way or another is .. Chris. *hugs chris* AND I WAS A TOTAL BITCH TO HIM YEESTERDAY! god wtf is wrong with me, i let these people use me and hurt me and ... i just fucking go with it and bc i dont want them to feel bad i dont tell them, they ask me if i am okay and i say dont worry about it. NOT that i am okay, i tell them not to worry about it, but i worry about it, i stay up at night thinking, i cry randomly ... i hate it. i hate how stupid i am ...... i just want to lay down, fall into a dream, and never wake up these people arent worth it. why shed a tear on a boy who doesnt even know how wrong he is. i am tired of this life, i am tired of it.....