I love her
my last entry was true i was tired of everything, i am still tired of a lot of it, but.... I SLEPT lmao. so i am not as tired anymore, the whole thing i said about Davina in there..... well me and Davina had like a 5 second conversation this morning, I wasnt mad at her last night i was just sad, depressed and she was part of the reason on a couple of levels. even tho she is part of a problem in my life i wouldnt trade her for anything, i think my real problem might be that for my whole life she was my role model, i loved her everytime she came to visit i didnt want to stop hanging out with her and everytime they told me she was coming down i would get really happy. It made me really happy when they told me she was moving in with us, but now i am so depressed bc ... she did thing out of depression that werent right, and it pisses me off. she doesnt trust me and she see's herself in a way i have never seen her and i know my family has never seen her, she is not the spodted child, to me she will always be Davina Martinez, my aunt who i love and who helped shape who i am today.