What bothers me is that I don't think the woman IS an idiot. She struck me as very thoughtful and considerate when we first "met" via another LJ friend. She's also a Christian, so the level of her anger/bile/fury/offence was really shocking to me.
I'm worried that if she views the world like that, then she's probably only intensifing her illness. She's certainly "teaching others" that she's unpleasant to deal with at times, and it undermines her personal crusade to have people understand her disablement and how they treat her.
My problem was that she made it so I did not want to write in LJ anymore. I still DO NOT WANT TO. I had to force myself to write what I did. This is no longer pleasant for me; the pure joy of writing and communicating with people took a hard blow from her onslaught.
For those keeping track of my High Holy Days posts, there was not one for Alban Eilir. I couldn't do it. I could not write it. I mused around, thinking perhaps I would possibly dig myself in deeper and write a post about Offence is something you TAKE ONTO YOURSELF BY CHOICE (because it is), but I couldn't do it.
I'm still struggling, which is why I keep thinking about it. I spent months putting together and shipping out goodies to people in the BPAL Care Package Project, and Shay's stupid anger and vindictiveness stole the fun out of that, too. How much damage do women like these do to others?
It's like being beaten up mentally and emotionally when someone goes off on you like this...I guess I'm bruised.
I'm worried that if she views the world like that, then she's probably only intensifing her illness. She's certainly "teaching others" that she's unpleasant to deal with at times, and it undermines her personal crusade to have people understand her disablement and how they treat her.
My problem was that she made it so I did not want to write in LJ anymore. I still DO NOT WANT TO. I had to force myself to write what I did. This is no longer pleasant for me; the pure joy of writing and communicating with people took a hard blow from her onslaught.
For those keeping track of my High Holy Days posts, there was not one for Alban Eilir. I couldn't do it. I could not write it. I mused around, thinking perhaps I would possibly dig myself in deeper and write a post about Offence is something you TAKE ONTO YOURSELF BY CHOICE (because it is), but I couldn't do it.
I'm still struggling, which is why I keep thinking about it. I spent months putting together and shipping out goodies to people in the BPAL Care Package Project, and Shay's stupid anger and vindictiveness stole the fun out of that, too. How much damage do women like these do to others?
It's like being beaten up mentally and emotionally when someone goes off on you like this...I guess I'm bruised.
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