01-07-20 Day 7 Hour of Moon-Saturn 1715-1745 5-8
Today I remember having a few more psychic moments where I would just think of something and there would be a reason later why did that. I got lost a bit in thought over the men's group and how badly that went. For my work I did the usual warm-up read the book and I got to my first big block of text in my journal. The only problem is I need a good way to copy and paste all of it cuz I've got 15 of 30 days that month. If anybody has any suggestions let me know. Other than that I'd accidentally post that went up and I started working out. Also going back to more recent times it's amazing how many little things there are to try to remember to do that you supposed to like do every day. Like remember to breathe deeply smile holding your gut ground center raise up the energy shield do you dishes don't let your mind wander get the register. I'm also starting to notice though more magic in my fingertips like when I just flex it's there I don't know what to do with it though. Also I had some great ideas today while I was at work I don't know if time enough to go into them here but I'm going to try to. Cuz yes I will be reading these eventually in review hopefully by before the end of this year. I'm still wondering about my trips I'm planning for this year especially with reading back in my reviews I've done this before and it feels like I'm running away. I mean what is the goal of these trips I go to the place have a wonderful time for a week and then I have to come back to my life which seems so much worse because now I'm away from everything that was awesome for a week. I mean heck as much as the latest trips sucked I was looking forward to getting back here when I did everything was flipped turned upside down and I don't know if I really want to go through that again. Also I feel like I need to try and cultivate that space of awesomeness here in my day to day life. I wonder if there's a way to change the gravity so everything is focused on the area I'm living in and things start happening closer to me? I mean if I had the money and the time off I'd go do them in a heartbeat but I don't really have either right now. I'm sure I could make it happen but it's like do I really want to push and try to make this stuff happen. I do want awesome things around me I'm just adding that a lot of things that are around me aren't that awesome it seems. Or if it is it's hidden from me or could just be a lot of work.