01-03-20 Day 3 Hour of Mercury-Moon 2155-2230 2-7
For this entire year I just feel tired like I want to rest. Today I noticed some of the old pathways were coming back but the fire doesn't seem to be in them yet. It's like when you erase something on a page you can still kind of make it out if you try really hard you could get back the words that were on the page but they're not there yet. It's hard though keep an eye on my limitations that I had cuz I feel really disconnected from even be able to identify them. Tonight I did the warm up read my book and spend some time just going through my journals I think I'll have a lot less than I thought of before. As only 2018 and 2019 have the full year going on as it gets closer to those years I'm going to start using the export tool which will let me just copy and paste entire months. Sadly most of the bit I got this time was nothing of value well. It was a lot of memes and a little travel report my first big trip I took by myself. As well as getting fired from one job and starting another. I got to remember I can do this stuff outside of specified time but like I said I just keep feeling very lazy like I just want to lay back and go to sleep which I think I'll do now.