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I am so tired. Drew left a little whole ago. I dont know where to begin, i have so many things to say. Ok so drew read my last entry, which is fine, i mean it is a public place to post stuff, but he said something to me about it. Which was awesome, i am glad he did, he made me heart sink to my feet. He doesnt realize it, but just by him kissing me on the forehead, or on the cheek, or even initiating a kiss makes my heart sink, sometimes i wish he knew how much little things like a kiss on the forehead mean to me. Instead of me going to kiss him all the time. Tonight he kept asking what that look meant, even though in my last entry it clearly stated what that meant. So i am wondering does that mean he is waiting for me to say something first? Every minute i spend with him that look is growing to mean i love you. Right now, it means i like you more then you know, and i think i am falling in love with you. He wants me to tell him, i know, but i am scared, if i tell him directly i am scared he wont have the same thing or anything at all to say. I was tempted so many times to say "I Love You" but something stopped me. I want to tell him but i dont know how he feels, i cant tell. His body language says he does sometimes, but a lot of the some it says otherwise. You know whats funny though, i write in here as if he wont see it, but i know he will read it. Well i am going to bed, its late and i have to work tomorrow. Baby, when/if you read this, i love you. I want to say it to your face, but i am scared, and that sounds ridiculous, but its not, because since you read the last entry, and you saw that i love you, you seem to be acting differently. I cant hide how i feel, and i dont want to, i love you, and hopefully i will tell you. Also, the look means, "I love you"