Entry 22 - Jumping at shadows
So I had my first stomach ache since the surgery on Friday. I was terrified. See, the stomach aches leading up to the surgery were mostly mild and kept coming and going, just like this one, so naturally, I was worried pretty much all day, thankfully I've been okay since, and it probably was just a regular stomach ache, but I kind of can't wait not to get the tests over and done with so they can announce that my Crohn's has come back and start treating it with drugs. (I wish I didn't have to at all, but, I'm guessing based on probability here, as much as I'm normally an optimist, sometimes I'd rather be a realist than get my hopes up.)
I really started taking to writing poetry and Haikus, I've decided that's where I'm going to write my first book. I always thought I'd write a novel first, but it turns out I'm feeling very poetic at the moment - I've written poetry in the last week on everything from the fact that I'm selling Cassie (more on that later) to zombies. Really! Zombies. Most of it is short and nonsensical, but I like it that way. Originally, the plan was to write a book of poetry and give it to Claire for her birthday. Now, I just plan to write the book of poetry, it's not all exactly love poems any more, and it's not exactly a suitable present!
The shuffling, stumbling, shambling undead
Are coming for what's inside my head
They are relentless, they feel no pain
They just want a bite of brain
Haunting, isn't it? No, probably not.
So, I've decided to sell Cassie, I'm not happy about it, but she's starting to cost a lot to run, money I could better use elsewhere, and I really don't need to drive to work, I cycle most days anyway, now I'll just cycle or walk all days. I think I'll miss her a lot, I already feel heavy hearted knowing she won't be around, but I'm thinking of using the money (if I get enough) to buy one of the new iphones when they are released and name is Cassie in her honour. I'd rather sell her now than be the one who eventually had to scrap her, I just have to hope her new owners take good care of her.
I really started taking to writing poetry and Haikus, I've decided that's where I'm going to write my first book. I always thought I'd write a novel first, but it turns out I'm feeling very poetic at the moment - I've written poetry in the last week on everything from the fact that I'm selling Cassie (more on that later) to zombies. Really! Zombies. Most of it is short and nonsensical, but I like it that way. Originally, the plan was to write a book of poetry and give it to Claire for her birthday. Now, I just plan to write the book of poetry, it's not all exactly love poems any more, and it's not exactly a suitable present!
The shuffling, stumbling, shambling undead
Are coming for what's inside my head
They are relentless, they feel no pain
They just want a bite of brain
Haunting, isn't it? No, probably not.
So, I've decided to sell Cassie, I'm not happy about it, but she's starting to cost a lot to run, money I could better use elsewhere, and I really don't need to drive to work, I cycle most days anyway, now I'll just cycle or walk all days. I think I'll miss her a lot, I already feel heavy hearted knowing she won't be around, but I'm thinking of using the money (if I get enough) to buy one of the new iphones when they are released and name is Cassie in her honour. I'd rather sell her now than be the one who eventually had to scrap her, I just have to hope her new owners take good care of her.