what up nucca

[flake_ige]

I feel so many thing right night
I feel like being in theta phi isn't for me
but sometimes I feel like it is
......I feel like I"m all alone in the things that Ithnk and feel
And I feel like jordan understands me, but doesn't feel close needing me
What is wrong with needing the only person that you can talk to about crazy shit you hurt about?
Comeon
I have been dirnking
and I shouldn't be
and I have ot hide it and pretend i'm not
and that is total bill shit
don't vororities opress women.. the men can drink all they want.. and the woman can't and have to be supervised... lets just continue the gender roles that our parents set forth to us, it is such bull shit

I"mfucking in love with jordan
I don't know what he needs.. and I'm totally ready to NEVER see him again.. and that is the FUCKING truth

I MISS THOMAS lately..

Valentine's day is all about him, for the past three years,no joke
but i know things
Iknow how much he hurt me
and Iknow it is in my nature to continue to love him
even though I KNOW....

Uhh i  AM freaking out right now
I want to be in control
Sebastian keeps pasing around me
he knows I need him
I love him so much
more thanany person
he is stable

UHH what is going on righ tnow, i have no idea
this is a ramble
and I am in heels
i need cheese

I hurt
and I feel liberated