Back from the dead...
wow I just realized it's been like six hundred years since i've written on my livejournal. I've mostly been using xanga - but coming back here is like coming back to an old friend that you haven't really seen in ages and just catching up on things.
I finally moved out of Huntsville, TX and landed in the military city of Killeen, TX which is bordered by Ft. Hood, a military base. Living here for the past couple of weeks has been interesting because I really have been able to see a different side of how things go. I think at the beginning of the year I wanted very much to be supportive of the government here because I find myself being extremely critical of how things operate in America and then don't have a clue how to affect it in a way that is beneficial to society. So I'm trying to understand this government, and it's excruciatingly painful. But i'm working on it.
The military here is a diffrent story. The older military guys are like seasoned warriors who understand the purpose of the military and sort of command this respect. I met a four star general at the restaurant last night and he was VERY kind and his wife was very gracious. they had a lot of honour it seemed, and there was just this instant command and authority that sort of radiated from this guy. It was very easy to be their server because they treated me with a lot of respect, which you sadly don't find a lot in the waiting-tables industry. People are generally very stupid when they go eat at restaurants.
The gay culture here is a little different. I'm finding that as I pursue the meaning of life and why I'm here at all - i'm in these different situations that I truly detest. And a wise person looks at a situation and tries to figure out why they are there, what they have to learn, and then what they have to impart - if anything. It took me a while to figure that out. So mostly I entered these situations with a LOT of attitude and quite a bit of arrogance. Over the years though I've become more observant in the surroundings that I find myself in. Here, the gay people are very unorganized, they hardly know one another - and there are very small groups of gay people who are friends but don't know anyone else. It seems they meet entirely by chance, or at the local gay club (don't get me started on that mess) or online (don't get me started on THAT mess). The online crowd doesn't really meet, they just chat or try to hook up (a LOOOOOOOT of that is going on here, it's totally entertaining). And the people who are somewhat genuine have already met the other people who are genuine so it's like couples...sluts...and everyone else.
The military gay guys are the worst though. And it's something that i'm trying to understand. We out here fight so hard because we want gay people to have what everyone else has...equality and the ability to be seen as a human being. Barring how I feel about the upcoming gay youth, it's interesting that the gay people here on Ft. Hood who are in the military are incredibly snobby and demand instant respect because they are "fighting for our rights" without the slightest bit of appreciation for the fact that we civilians are fighting for THEIR rights to BE in the military at all. They're rude...very pretentious, and cannot handle any criticism about the military. In a word...IMMATURE. They're very immature. And that speaks more about the kind of youth that is being raised up than it does the military because again - the military people I've met so far have all been very respectful and people with manners. Even the ones that are obviously assholes act with proper manners when they're in public, or at least around me.
But then, as an Empress I demand people act with respect around me, hahaha.
So i'm working on my degree here, and also moving up in the world of restaurants. In the meantime i'm continuing to write music and work to save up enough money to make my first CD, which I hope will be well received. At the moment though i'm going to be waiting for a while, and that just seems really sad to me. I've got all this incredible expression waiting to be released into a CD, and paying off tuition, my car, bills, etc hinders me from doing so. Hahahaa, but I think that's what any musician has to go through so i'm very excited. Someone asked me if they thought trying to release music while i'm about to turn 30 is a good idea and I think it is. The current craze of people being famous and incredibly wealthy at 14, 15, and 16 is ruining their lives. Kids don't know what to do with that kind of wealth and popularity. Look at Lindsay Lohan checking herself into rehab...AGAIN!!! I just feel a very heavy weight on my heart for these people and I think that if I was thrust into that spotlight at that age I would have probably acted the same way. But at this age I might be able to handle something like that.
So there I am...I hope everyone's holidays went incredibly well and everyone is at some place of peace right now. There is a lot in the world that is changing and I sometimes think that a place of peace is a coveted place to be at the moment, and we should enjoy it.
-Aaron-
I finally moved out of Huntsville, TX and landed in the military city of Killeen, TX which is bordered by Ft. Hood, a military base. Living here for the past couple of weeks has been interesting because I really have been able to see a different side of how things go. I think at the beginning of the year I wanted very much to be supportive of the government here because I find myself being extremely critical of how things operate in America and then don't have a clue how to affect it in a way that is beneficial to society. So I'm trying to understand this government, and it's excruciatingly painful. But i'm working on it.
The military here is a diffrent story. The older military guys are like seasoned warriors who understand the purpose of the military and sort of command this respect. I met a four star general at the restaurant last night and he was VERY kind and his wife was very gracious. they had a lot of honour it seemed, and there was just this instant command and authority that sort of radiated from this guy. It was very easy to be their server because they treated me with a lot of respect, which you sadly don't find a lot in the waiting-tables industry. People are generally very stupid when they go eat at restaurants.
The gay culture here is a little different. I'm finding that as I pursue the meaning of life and why I'm here at all - i'm in these different situations that I truly detest. And a wise person looks at a situation and tries to figure out why they are there, what they have to learn, and then what they have to impart - if anything. It took me a while to figure that out. So mostly I entered these situations with a LOT of attitude and quite a bit of arrogance. Over the years though I've become more observant in the surroundings that I find myself in. Here, the gay people are very unorganized, they hardly know one another - and there are very small groups of gay people who are friends but don't know anyone else. It seems they meet entirely by chance, or at the local gay club (don't get me started on that mess) or online (don't get me started on THAT mess). The online crowd doesn't really meet, they just chat or try to hook up (a LOOOOOOOT of that is going on here, it's totally entertaining). And the people who are somewhat genuine have already met the other people who are genuine so it's like couples...sluts...and everyone else.
The military gay guys are the worst though. And it's something that i'm trying to understand. We out here fight so hard because we want gay people to have what everyone else has...equality and the ability to be seen as a human being. Barring how I feel about the upcoming gay youth, it's interesting that the gay people here on Ft. Hood who are in the military are incredibly snobby and demand instant respect because they are "fighting for our rights" without the slightest bit of appreciation for the fact that we civilians are fighting for THEIR rights to BE in the military at all. They're rude...very pretentious, and cannot handle any criticism about the military. In a word...IMMATURE. They're very immature. And that speaks more about the kind of youth that is being raised up than it does the military because again - the military people I've met so far have all been very respectful and people with manners. Even the ones that are obviously assholes act with proper manners when they're in public, or at least around me.
But then, as an Empress I demand people act with respect around me, hahaha.
So i'm working on my degree here, and also moving up in the world of restaurants. In the meantime i'm continuing to write music and work to save up enough money to make my first CD, which I hope will be well received. At the moment though i'm going to be waiting for a while, and that just seems really sad to me. I've got all this incredible expression waiting to be released into a CD, and paying off tuition, my car, bills, etc hinders me from doing so. Hahahaa, but I think that's what any musician has to go through so i'm very excited. Someone asked me if they thought trying to release music while i'm about to turn 30 is a good idea and I think it is. The current craze of people being famous and incredibly wealthy at 14, 15, and 16 is ruining their lives. Kids don't know what to do with that kind of wealth and popularity. Look at Lindsay Lohan checking herself into rehab...AGAIN!!! I just feel a very heavy weight on my heart for these people and I think that if I was thrust into that spotlight at that age I would have probably acted the same way. But at this age I might be able to handle something like that.
So there I am...I hope everyone's holidays went incredibly well and everyone is at some place of peace right now. There is a lot in the world that is changing and I sometimes think that a place of peace is a coveted place to be at the moment, and we should enjoy it.
-Aaron-