#151 ambivalence, nonchalance
l1r5 10pts raw, 6pts nett
I wanted a single digit so badly, but alhamdulillah still. God is good in every single way, even on the not-so good days. I will sing my praise for You because You know my plans the best and if VJ's not the school you planned out for me, so be it.
It took me a hell lot of effort to actually type this without busting out a swear word hahahaha. I would be lying if i said i didn't cry during the results just now but cedar's MSG was so terrible (9.9 lol) it sort of softened the blow. or maybe i just accepted my fate and moved on idk idk i'm sort of feeling apathetic towards the entire situation. all my friends didn't do as well as they expected either with the exception of some others, so i guess we're all just licking each other's wounds in some way.........
mummy Sonia called me because she was so worried for me. it may be a small gesture but i was so, so touched. goes to show that the friendships i forged during RC9 has transcended the barrier of superficiality. thank god for every single one of them, they have really made my 2012. they made my yesterday too, i honestly love ridiculously long and hilarious whatsapp conversations. i hope they'll make my tomorrow, and my next week and my next month. i really really hope we don't drift but alas when jcs and poly start, it is bound to happen. inevitable.
am currently going on skype with best boy zakiy trying to help him with his JPSAE i really really hope he gets in. he deserves this more than anyone.
P/S: trying to remain optimistic the best I can please do not take pity on me or try to comfort me. i am fine!! (and i really mean it!)