last week
i started seeing a therapist again. she is nice. i don't think i am going to do anything earth-shattering there, but it could help some. if not i'll look for someone else. i had a no-nonsense one before this, and she didn't let me get away with anything. that's the kind i need.
i also saw my dr. and had blood tests done again. i am waiting for the results. she thinks i may have diabetes, i hope not. my anti depressant was increased. i think it may have been my anti-psychotic that needed to be but we will see. i need help around my fear of dying. i literally can't enjoy my life completely because of it. so yea, i think its paranoia rearing it's ugly head. it's been so long that i have been doing so well on my medication.
i got some xmas presents from my daughter. she sent me the neatest smiths t shirt, louder than bombs. and a replacement wedding ring, i couldn't wear my other one anymore as my finger got fatter. and glen hansard cd's , when i just heard him for the first time last week!
i got a new book called Foolsgold, about finding creativity. have any of you read it?
i worry that the economy is going to take a couple years to fix.
any ideas on how to make friends? i don't go anywhere except swimming and i've talked about how th ose gals are. not friend material. although they are nice. we need to go back to the unitarian church and maybe find friends there. but the only person that talked to we named "closetalker" because she got like an inch from your face and i didn't like that much.
i really do want to be optimistic!
what are all of you doing for christmas? you are snowed in, you folks in portland, i'm so sorry. will you be with people? krissy?
xoxoxo
i also saw my dr. and had blood tests done again. i am waiting for the results. she thinks i may have diabetes, i hope not. my anti depressant was increased. i think it may have been my anti-psychotic that needed to be but we will see. i need help around my fear of dying. i literally can't enjoy my life completely because of it. so yea, i think its paranoia rearing it's ugly head. it's been so long that i have been doing so well on my medication.
i got some xmas presents from my daughter. she sent me the neatest smiths t shirt, louder than bombs. and a replacement wedding ring, i couldn't wear my other one anymore as my finger got fatter. and glen hansard cd's , when i just heard him for the first time last week!
i got a new book called Foolsgold, about finding creativity. have any of you read it?
i worry that the economy is going to take a couple years to fix.
any ideas on how to make friends? i don't go anywhere except swimming and i've talked about how th ose gals are. not friend material. although they are nice. we need to go back to the unitarian church and maybe find friends there. but the only person that talked to we named "closetalker" because she got like an inch from your face and i didn't like that much.
i really do want to be optimistic!
what are all of you doing for christmas? you are snowed in, you folks in portland, i'm so sorry. will you be with people? krissy?
xoxoxo