i bought
the new wally lamb book with a gift card we got for christmas, its huge just like his last one. i am also re-reading for the fourth time Finding your hearts desire by sonia choquette. it has helped me before and i am hoping it helps me again.
we went to see Milk the other night, it is so so good, made me cry. i wanted to find a christmas tree place to smell the trees, but we co uldn't find any. i am sick again, got a cold from someone, a virus.
jeremy and i had a huge talk last night about going back to portland. there were many tears and there was anger and sadness and intensity. we are going to look outside the box more. i just wanted to know that he was willing to do that and hadn't gotten locked into a one-way answer for how to do it. i am miserable here and need to find a way not to be. this hearts desire book talks about how i will definately not get what i need by thinking someone else
is in charge of my dreams(jeremy). i also am going to get the book No death No fear suggested by mark, it is only three dollars and something on amazon. i have been doing an awful lot of reading lately. searching, searching so hard but i think i am searching too hard and it is right here and i just can't see it.
xx
we went to see Milk the other night, it is so so good, made me cry. i wanted to find a christmas tree place to smell the trees, but we co uldn't find any. i am sick again, got a cold from someone, a virus.
jeremy and i had a huge talk last night about going back to portland. there were many tears and there was anger and sadness and intensity. we are going to look outside the box more. i just wanted to know that he was willing to do that and hadn't gotten locked into a one-way answer for how to do it. i am miserable here and need to find a way not to be. this hearts desire book talks about how i will definately not get what i need by thinking someone else
is in charge of my dreams(jeremy). i also am going to get the book No death No fear suggested by mark, it is only three dollars and something on amazon. i have been doing an awful lot of reading lately. searching, searching so hard but i think i am searching too hard and it is right here and i just can't see it.
xx