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I almost don't know what to do with myself now that the semester's over.. almost. I'm enjoying reading what I want. Studying for the verbal section of the GRE is okay; I'm terrified of even touching the math but I know I need to. Work is so incredibly boring, but I shouldn't complain about being paid to study and go online.
One of the things I've been doing the most is cleaning, which sounds pathetic, but I don't really care. I'm not sure if it's because I like things to be organized, or if it's because I was expected to cook and clean the majority of the time after my mom started college when I was in middle school. It doesn't matter either way, because I enjoy housework. I suppose that will probably change when it's all I do every day. I recognize that my aspirations, in many ways, are very different from most women my age, and I embrace that. Family is the most important thing to me, not school, definitely not work, and not breakfast (Arrested Development.. sigh). And I intend to never let work come first. I don't care what it takes, I'm not putting my kids in day care. Somehow we'll manage on one income until they're in school all day. I'm not leaving my children to be raised by someone else.
We keep getting kicked while we're down. I don't know why we've been down here for so long; all I know is that God knows what he's doing. I'm trying to question less and trust more.. as I should.
One of the things I've been doing the most is cleaning, which sounds pathetic, but I don't really care. I'm not sure if it's because I like things to be organized, or if it's because I was expected to cook and clean the majority of the time after my mom started college when I was in middle school. It doesn't matter either way, because I enjoy housework. I suppose that will probably change when it's all I do every day. I recognize that my aspirations, in many ways, are very different from most women my age, and I embrace that. Family is the most important thing to me, not school, definitely not work, and not breakfast (Arrested Development.. sigh). And I intend to never let work come first. I don't care what it takes, I'm not putting my kids in day care. Somehow we'll manage on one income until they're in school all day. I'm not leaving my children to be raised by someone else.
We keep getting kicked while we're down. I don't know why we've been down here for so long; all I know is that God knows what he's doing. I'm trying to question less and trust more.. as I should.